Started drinking again...

[shakenfruit]

I quit drinking almost a year ago, got clean two years ago. Right now I'm counting it as a blessing that I'm still clean. I got some very disturbing family news a month ago and I have been drinking myself to sleep almost every night since. I try not to but I can't seem to stop. I feel like maybe I can't quit again. I don't know how to deal with this kind of pain without doing something to numb out.

 

[BlessEwe]

Is it possible to go to a meeting, just sit in there for a while. Relapse is common especially when we are not working on ourself's. I have heard that your body continues on from where you left off the last time you used, so of coarse that is why you can not stop. From being in recovery you know where it will all lead, right? Praying for you.

 

[Dralan]

Have you ever tried AA? If you think you have a drinking problem I suggest you find a meeting and get a sponsor. I know that for myself, being an alcoholic, just simply not drinking is not enough. I need to stay spiritually fit and active in the program. My disease still progresses even if Im not drinking if Im not doing anything about it.

 

[__seek]

the only thing i can say is go to many AA meetings, talk to the people. im sure most of them have been in your situation. they have helped me immensley, they are a huge help.

 

[unkern]

from one ex alcoholic to another
Heres the big questions: Does it really take the pain away?
It never took the pain away for me, in fact it seemed to magnify it.
It this what the person that died would want you to do, would they be proud of you?
Why should another die for one that already died?
1 out of every 1 people die, and you will one day die as well. Do you want to have please your God before that time?

 

[Catherineanne]

I quit drinking almost a year ago, got clean two years ago. Right now I'm counting it as a blessing that I'm still clean. I got some very disturbing family news a month ago and I have been drinking myself to sleep almost every night since. I try not to but I can't seem to stop. I feel like maybe I can't quit again. I don't know how to deal with this kind of pain without doing something to numb out.

How about pouring every drop of alcohol in your home down the nearest toilet, allowing yourself to feel that pain, and crying your eyes out?

Even if it takes you a week of crying, it will not kill you. Whereas, if you keep drinking, that will.

Love hurts, and the pain you feel is the cost of love. None of us can escape from feeling this pain, once in a while, but how does it help to smother the pain with drink, leaving it to return again when you wake up?

Pain is the cost of love. You choose; would you rather not have loved the person/people causing you distress now?

Nobody has a pain free life. The trick is not to escape that pain, but to feel it, and live through it. Imagine you have a child who is crying in pain, perhaps after losing something important. Would you give that child alcohol? Of course not. What would you do? Wrap it in a blanket? Cuddle it? Sing it a song? Ok, then wrap yourself up in a blanket, give yourself a cuddle and put on your favourite music. It can be done; the answer is within you.

God be with you.

 

[ww2pigeon]

You need a support group, mine was A.A. but there are others, Celabrate Recovery another. You sound like you are still living in the problem, by going to meetings it will give you tools to live in the solution. I will pray that you make a healthy choice for yourself, in Jesus name Amen

 

[TheMainException]

You have learned a coping method, that, although helpful for the moment, can't solve anything. We know it, you know it. You need to learn a new coping strategy and relearn living without mind altering substances. Life is painful, we've all felt its heavy blows on our backs, but we must learn to accept this pain and find that the joy is so much better because we have felt pain. Have you ever tried counseling? It can be very helpful in learning how to deal with the pain in your life without alcohol.

Blessings friend,
TME