Yes, I certainly see what you're talking about, and I think I often have split ideologies. More often than not, it is an emotional response to a particular idea. Usually it is one I find so abhorrent and extreme that it inspires in me an equally vehement anagonistic opinion. On occasion, however, I find a relatively 'extreme' view that I agree with, and it can have the effect of pulling me in the same direction.
The best way to actually get to the heart of my ideologies, I find, is to try to seperate myself from outside stimuli, and to begin from an optimistic position in which I assume the best of everyone and every ideological belief, and work from there.
More difficult is when I find myself more concretely in two minds about something. I find that, over time, a fair and open assessment of the issues from a liberal (I use the term without any reference to political or religious standpoints, but rather to mean more tolerant and diverse) viewpoint helps to moerate and refine my ideas.
It can be a difficult and confusing process, with a lot of mistakes and jumping to opposing conclusions but it is a very positive one, and I find that, as my consideration of issues goes on, I find myself having much more conviction in the beliefs I profess. I feel far less apprehension in professing them because, most importantly, I have greater honesty and integrity in doing so.
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