spiritual help

[cvalley]

I'm not a new Christian,I'm a on again off again Christian.I am a doubter and I hate it I believe in god.I own a fairly big logging company and have put everything I have into it,now I have no work I am loosing everything,my home my business I have prayed and prayed I have no were to go I have a wife and 2 young children.
I realize that the lord has a plan for me but I wish he would make things more clear to me,than i wounder is he even around is he listening my heart gets heavy I think of suicide.I know that that is a wrong thought I have lost a sister to cancer and a son to a motor cycle accident, my spirit is ill and I need help and I don't know were to turn.I find myself just sitting at home looking out the window just waiting for the bailiffs to show up,any advice would be appreciated.
Darcy

 

[goldenviolet]

you may be on again, off again, but Jesus isn't. your hours of feeling suicidal, you are not alone. i don't know what to say, but i can say you aren't as bad off as you feel:
the Lord keeps your gift free and secure in His hands. who could dare pluck it from Him? nobody. bless your heart through your trials.

3 Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ! In his great mercy he has given us new birth into a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead, 4 and into an inheritance that can never perish, spoil or fade—kept in heaven for you, 5 who through faith are shielded by God's power until the coming of the salvation that is ready to be revealed in the last time. 6 In this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while you may have had to suffer grief in all kinds of trials. 7 These have come so that your faith—of greater worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire—may be proved genuine and may result in praise, glory and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed. 8 Though you have not seen him, you love him; and even though you do not see him now, you believe in him and are filled with an inexpressible and glorious joy, 9 for you are receiving the goal of your faith, the salvation of your souls. 1 Peter 1:3-9

2 Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3 because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. 4 Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. 5 If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him. 6 But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. 7 That man should not think he will receive anything from the Lord; 8 he is a double-minded man, unstable in all he does. James 1:2-8

blessings, xo dee

 

[BlessEwe]

I am so sorry to hear of your company, home loss.

With everything that is going on right now in your life, you maybe questioning God, and your faith. This is a very common emotion, look at the disciples and how Jesus really understood their lack of faith during the hard times. Yet He still loved them very much, just as He loves you very much.
We tend to look at things through our own emotions, God is Never changing, so through our personal crisis we can really try to lean on God by taking the huge step and find peace of knowing God is in charge.

For me personally I found my relationship grew while in the valley of hurt and pain. Perhaps it was because I had no where to go, but rely 100% on God. It is not a fun place to be, and know that you are being held in the palm of Christ. You are not alone He is with you. Your family needs your strength though Christ.

Remember the parable when Christ was on the boat and in a huge storm. He slept in peace while the crew was in a panic. Try to remember this if you are taken from your home, that your life is a storm right now, but God gave us this parable to rest in Him during these times.
Please, if you can keep us updated with your situation, and I am praying for you and your family.

 

[dluvs2trvl]

Hi cvalley...My name is Denise...I just wanted to let you know that I am so sorry for the struggles that you and your family are facing. There are so many things going on in this world today that we just do not and cannot understand. So many people are facing the most difficult and troubling of times. Unfortunately, I have no answers. I have no words to give that will make it all go away or put you back in the financial position you once were in or to bring your sister and son back. However, I do know one who can comfort you beyond understanding and you know Him too. He loves you and He sees your pain and your struggle. Run to Him and cry out to Him. Scream at Him and yell at Him. He can take it and He'll understand.

This is a tried and true poem but one I hope you will read. It has comforted me many times thru some very dark days...

Footprints in the Sand

One night I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord.
Many scenes from my life flashed across the sky.
In each scene I noticed footprints in the sand.
Sometimes there were two sets of footprints,
other times there were one set of footprints.

This bothered me because I noticed that during the low periods of my life,
when I was suffering from anguish, sorrow or defeat,
I could see only one set of footprints.

So I said to the Lord,
"You promised me Lord, that if I followed you,
you would walk with me always.
But I have noticed that during the most trying periods of my life
there have only been one set of footprints in the sand.
Why, when I needed you most, you have not been there for me?"

The Lord replied,
"The times when you have seen only one set of footprints in the sand, is when I carried you"

Mary Stevenson

You and your family are in my prayers and please feel free to PM me, one of the other moderators or a chaplain if you would like to talk