Sometimes I feel...

[legacyoftheju]

Sometimes I feel lonely, and very sad, but there's so much going on in life. I think this is depression. But see I think I've been misdiagnosed. My counselor says it's one thing and a psychiatrist says it's another. My counselor doesn't agree with the psychiatrist much (they are located in different buildings, but my psy has a counselor in his office if I ever wanted to see him).

Anyway, I've become frustrated with myself and this situation, mostly because I think the medication they are giving me don't help, but I'm afraid to speak up, and even when I do speak up, it's like my psychaitrist don't listen to me.

I don't want to rattle on about this, but is there any advice, anything I can do to feel better about this? I'm so afraid that he will put me in the hospital again just to change my medications (he's done that before to his patients, including me).

Please pray for me and this situation. I'll be praying for everyone here at CF too. Thanks.

Alex

 

[HolyOne87]

i shall pray for you Alex.

 

[Kristen.NewCreation]

Sometimes I feel lonely, and very sad, but there's so much going on in life. I think this is depression. But see I think I've been misdiagnosed. My counselor says it's one thing and a psychiatrist says it's another. My counselor doesn't agree with the psychiatrist much (they are located in different buildings, but my psy has a counselor in his office if I ever wanted to see him).

Anyway, I've become frustrated with myself and this situation, mostly because I think the medication they are giving me don't help, but I'm afraid to speak up, and even when I do speak up, it's like my psychaitrist don't listen to me.

I don't want to rattle on about this, but is there any advice, anything I can do to feel better about this? I'm so afraid that he will put me in the hospital again just to change my medications (he's done that before to his patients, including me).

Please pray for me and this situation. I'll be praying for everyone here at CF too. Thanks.

Alex

Hi Alex,

Unless you are limited to this one psychiatrist because there aren't any others, or because of financial limitations, I'd suggest it's time to look for a new psychiatrist.

Another issue to think about is that many therapists spend a good amount of time with their clients, and psychiatrists will limit their sessions to checking on the medications, and not looking at what the real issues are. In my experience, many times therapists and psychiatrists disagree... I tend to listen to the therapist - they usually have more time invested in the client.

Unless you are threatening to harm yourself or others, or have become gravely disabled, you have to give consent to be hospitalized. To hospitalize you without your consent, the psychiatrist would have to prove you are a danger to yourself in front of a judge.

In our state, we have nurse practitioners who are able to prescribe medications, and many people use them instead of the psychiatrist for general issues like depression and anxiety.

Perhaps your therapist can advocate for you and your medication needs. I'd start there, and then look at what your other options are. And unless there is a very dramatic difference in diagnosis, I wouldn't worry so much about their differences.

I hope you'll figure out what you can do.

In Him,
Kristen

 

[Angeldove97]

Hey Alex,
I'll be praying for you and about the depression. I've had it on and off since 8th grade---so awhile now. It's getting worse but I'm still uncomfortable talking about it with people, especially adults (had a really bad situation). I'm also planning on being a teacher so I'm worried about if I have to go on meds eventually if that'll effect my job.

I do hope you get things figured out though

 

[AWorkInProgress]

Sometimes I feel lonely, and very sad, but there's so much going on in life. I think this is depression. But see I think I've been misdiagnosed. My counselor says it's one thing and a psychiatrist says it's another. My counselor doesn't agree with the psychiatrist much (they are located in different buildings, but my psy has a counselor in his office if I ever wanted to see him).

Anyway, I've become frustrated with myself and this situation, mostly because I think the medication they are giving me don't help, but I'm afraid to speak up, and even when I do speak up, it's like my psychaitrist don't listen to me.

I don't want to rattle on about this, but is there any advice, anything I can do to feel better about this? I'm so afraid that he will put me in the hospital again just to change my medications (he's done that before to his patients, including me).

Please pray for me and this situation. I'll be praying for everyone here at CF too. Thanks.

Alex

lonely and sad, then you probably are.

I don't know the full depth of your decissions your making and behaviors. I will just share my findings on loneliness, see if they can help you.

old post of mine.

I was checking on something and realized I been living my life in loneliness. What really caught me was "Emotions inward".

Some point in our lives we were emotionally hurt so much that we built walls around us. These walls may got us thru some difficult times, but they become a prison. God designed us with relationship and love in mind, and to hide our essance, our very soul from the world. Is denying the love we need to live.

Use wisdom to help guide you, from teachings of Christ and wisdom of scriptures. Then let the walls come down, allow yourself to be vulnerible again. Give up your need for control and give it to the Lord.

Only when you can share yourself fully with others, will you be able to live again. Relationships are based on giving and recieving. To listen and to talk. Things that are lost in our society or taken for granted. Learn how to give and how to recieve.

Well between talking with the Great Father and checking out good book on loneliness. All starts with one emotion, fear.

Fear and negitive thinking prevents a person from being themselves around others. Avoiding conflicts, insecurities, shame, self doubt, and anxiety.

Second part is need for control. Fear shrinks the social world so much that try to control what space one has. Lure people into it or hope someone notices. When in large group or crowd, anxiety of not having control prevents a person from being themselves.

Lack of faith, ever human being has written in their souls for the heart's desire to share themselves with another. God created us with relationships in mind, but when one cuts themselves from others. Like creates a vacuum, and that makes the heart's desire seems like the cure all. When in reality it is not enough. Placing way too much weight on equal yoked situation.

God told me commitment. Natural tendency to allow God to have control in all things in life except maybe finding love in my life or playing my guitar. Or fill in whatever desire that one wants control over. I found it surprizing my lack of faith I have in this area. REALLY the fear and desire for cure all created discontentment. That discontentment has become a wedge between my trust in the God in this area. When in reality the folly lies in my fear of being social, which created the problem in the first place.

-learn what negitive thoughts preventing one from crossing that bridge to be social with others
-learn positive thinking and additude, if anything is negitive make sure there is solid proof to back it before it is believed
-suffering from shame or guilt, solve these problems(I used to carry my own shame with my porn addiction, I am not afraid of it anymore for I humbled myself and tackled it)
-let go of one's death grip on whatever desire. Control should be in God's hands, not ours. Freedom is in having no control and breathing in unpredictiblility and risk
-commitment, return trust in God that he will help you. He has a plan, always does. Reflect thru one's own life to see where his hand has played if need proof.

My own considered opinion. I wanted to post in turn offs that greatest problem is when person doesn't allow themselves to be themselves. Yes there are people who look to physcial to judge of potiential mate, but there are others who look towards personality. I think I been robbing people in my home town the chance to know who I am. I think lot other people think of their weight or some issue prevent them from shining. Do not look to society that is drowning in sin for concept of normalacy. Be who you are meant to be, which is one's own self. Yes, we all are not perfect and can use some improvement. But so can everyone else in the room, at work, or whereever.

 

[Lisa0315]

Sometimes I feel lonely, and very sad, but there's so much going on in life. I think this is depression. But see I think I've been misdiagnosed. My counselor says it's one thing and a psychiatrist says it's another. My counselor doesn't agree with the psychiatrist much (they are located in different buildings, but my psy has a counselor in his office if I ever wanted to see him).

Anyway, I've become frustrated with myself and this situation, mostly because I think the medication they are giving me don't help, but I'm afraid to speak up, and even when I do speak up, it's like my psychaitrist don't listen to me.

I don't want to rattle on about this, but is there any advice, anything I can do to feel better about this? I'm so afraid that he will put me in the hospital again just to change my medications (he's done that before to his patients, including me).

Please pray for me and this situation. I'll be praying for everyone here at CF too. Thanks.

Alex

Hi Alex. I will be praying for you, dear. I know it must be frustrating for you. Could you maybe write your counselor and doctor a letter to express how you feel. That way you won't have to be confrontational with either, but you will still make them understand how you feel.

Lisa

 

[legacyoftheju]

Hi Alex,

Unless you are limited to this one psychiatrist because there aren't any others, or because of financial limitations, I'd suggest it's time to look for a new psychiatrist.

Another issue to think about is that many therapists spend a good amount of time with their clients, and psychiatrists will limit their sessions to checking on the medications, and not looking at what the real issues are. In my experience, many times therapists and psychiatrists disagree... I tend to listen to the therapist - they usually have more time invested in the client.

Unless you are threatening to harm yourself or others, or have become gravely disabled, you have to give consent to be hospitalized. To hospitalize you without your consent, the psychiatrist would have to prove you are a danger to yourself in front of a judge.

In our state, we have nurse practitioners who are able to prescribe medications, and many people use them instead of the psychiatrist for general issues like depression and anxiety.

Perhaps your therapist can advocate for you and your medication needs. I'd start there, and then look at what your other options are. And unless there is a very dramatic difference in diagnosis, I wouldn't worry so much about their differences.

I hope you'll figure out what you can do.

In Him,
Kristen

You all have great ideas.. I haven't read the long one yet from 'aworkinprogress', but I looked over some of the others. I think a letter to the psychiatrist is a good idea.
To Kristen, about the medications - here in my state we have a thing called 'adanta'. I haven't used it much except to go there to talk to the ladies who I'm renting my apartment from. They work with mentally disabled people. Anyways, I'll try out the adanta counselors, i think they have them there. I went there one time and they almost put me in the hospital after talking to me for just a couple of minutes. That was back a long time ago though and I'm a lot better than i was back then.

Thank you all for writing in to me. I appreciate everything you all have to offer.

Love to you all,
Alex

 

[Lisa0315]

You all have great ideas.. I haven't read the long one yet from 'aworkinprogress', but I looked over some of the others. I think a letter to the psychiatrist is a good idea.
To Kristen, about the medications - here in my state we have a thing called 'adanta'. I haven't used it much except to go there to talk to the ladies who I'm renting my apartment from. They work with mentally disabled people. Anyways, I'll try out the adanta counselors, i think they have them there. I went there one time and they almost put me in the hospital after talking to me for just a couple of minutes. That was back a long time ago though and I'm a lot better than i was back then.

Thank you all for writing in to me. I appreciate everything you all have to offer.

Love to you all,
Alex

We are all here for you Alex, and many of us have suffered with mental illness or have a loved one who is suffering.

I am clinically depressed and my husband is bipolar.

However, with the Lord's help, (and good drugs!), my husband and I are doing very well. I pray that you someday reach a point where you will be able to help others too.

God bless you sweetie!

Lisa

 

[ShannonJ]

As hard as it may be to speak up, because I know that some Doctor's can be intimidating, you are your #1 advocate for how you feel. If you don't feel comfortable with the diagnosis you have been given try to see a different Doctor. It is all what you are comfortable with. You never know, maybe just getting a second opinion will ease your mind about the diagnosis. Also, if the medication is not helping try to see if the Doctor you are seeing has a different approach to switching meds that could involve keeping you out of the hospital. It can be so frustrating trying to go down the path to recovery. I have seen 3 different Doctors and Two different counselors in my process and I am on my second medication. If I had stuck with the original Doctor and my original med I don't think I would be in the better place that I am in now. Good luck on your journey! I'll pray for God to give insight to your Doctor and help direct you on the best path to recovery!