Evil makes me sick, literally. I need to figure out something to do to protect myself from evil because it has surrounded me with ups and downs. Like, appearances on the mirror and lots of rocks, or maybe they're just bugs, thrown at the windows. So all I wanted was some guidance on how to close the entrance to the other-side because whatever is there, whether they are us or something else, seem dangerous to me. I had a nightmare recently that I was stabbed a bunch of times from 9 different demons who crawled in through the window after I took an OD. My uncle was the one who warned me not to ever kill myself, but when someone said that the voice was demonic I did it anyways and now I'm trying to recover from what happened. Because I know my uncle was just warning me of something bad that may happen. So now I'm trying to make it right. But I feel chained because my uncle also told me I don't really have schizophrenia, and my dad is constantly saying to everyone he knows that I am but he doesn't even know....he just blocks me out and pretends I make no sense. I mean how would I know at this point? All I've ever been told is that I'm crazy for believing in GOD. Now that the nightmare is coming true, test that theory.