- Jan 31, 2021
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I apologize if this doesn't belong here but I need help ASAP. I don't know wether this is an evil spirit harassing me or something else but please help.
Shortly after the 2016 election, I remember that some strange change immediately happened in my life. I was struggling with some type of addiction and issues with changing. I felt immediately that my ability to change and stop that thing and to change for the best completely left me. At the time, I didn't think much of it because it didn't impact my whole life at the time. It felt like some power immediately left from me but I don't know exactly what happened. I was unable to completely stop this issue that I had been struggling with for some time now. Fast forward to the election in 2024, shortly after the election, I suddenly felt something weird happen in my mind.
All throughout my life, I was a person who was curious about everything and anything. I had high ambitions and I had a rich imagination, vibrant and strong inner world, strong curiosity, deeper sense of self-reflection/self-introspection, constantly obsessed and thinking about deeper things than material things such as spirituality, religion, heaven, hell, consciousness, philosophy, psychology, purpose, etc. I was interested in learning new things as well and fascinated by new skills. However, a couple of days after the 2024 presidential election, I felt like some strange change happened to me all of a sudden. Something very weird and strange happened suddenly. I really feel different, in the worst way possible. PLEASE READ THIS VERY, VERY, VERY CAREFULLY! I literally don't care about the president's polices and politics at all. I am not attached to it whatsoever at all. It literally has nothing to do with politics and the agenda of the president. I don't even hate or like the president. I am neutral and don't care about his policies at all. This is not related to politics at all. PLEASE UNDERSTAND THIS!
I was listening to an audiobook and suddenly, I felt some tingling and some change going on in my mind. I felt some tingling in the left side of my mind and something slowly started to disappear from my head immediately. When this happened, I felt like my intellectual side, my creative abilities, my imagination, my inner self, being and everything that makes up with me as a person slowly disappeared or vanished overnight somehow. I feel like there's some kind of random change or something deeper than this that affected me. The vibe around my world felt different. I am not the same person anymore and it's like everything that I described about myself as a human being slowly disappeared immediately. I feel like my discernment and logical/intellectual guard to discern when people have dark and malicious intentions against me has been diminished or severely weakened. I feel like something inside of me has been weakened or died down or disappeared somehow. It's like my actual inner being/soul/spirit or whatever it is that is the real me has been beaten down and limited and restricted to a certain level. This is hard to explain and describe as well.
This is extremely painful with what I am dealing with because I don't feel like I have the capacity to change my life like I always wanted to. The biggest issue that is affecting me so badly now is my personality, identity and way of reasoning has been slowly erasing day by day and I am literally starting to see that I don't reason or think or behave the same way that I always used to. This is all for the worst. I can't imagine, brainstorm, think, be creative, etc at all. I am completely confused and stuck all the time. I have something wrong with me and I am looking for some type of explanation. I used to be into improving myself overall but then it all vanished completely. I will not accept that this is mental illness because this just happened immediately out of nowhere just like that and it's not good. It's no way that this is mental health related. What kind of experience can this be? Can someone please help me?
Shortly after the 2016 election, I remember that some strange change immediately happened in my life. I was struggling with some type of addiction and issues with changing. I felt immediately that my ability to change and stop that thing and to change for the best completely left me. At the time, I didn't think much of it because it didn't impact my whole life at the time. It felt like some power immediately left from me but I don't know exactly what happened. I was unable to completely stop this issue that I had been struggling with for some time now. Fast forward to the election in 2024, shortly after the election, I suddenly felt something weird happen in my mind.
All throughout my life, I was a person who was curious about everything and anything. I had high ambitions and I had a rich imagination, vibrant and strong inner world, strong curiosity, deeper sense of self-reflection/self-introspection, constantly obsessed and thinking about deeper things than material things such as spirituality, religion, heaven, hell, consciousness, philosophy, psychology, purpose, etc. I was interested in learning new things as well and fascinated by new skills. However, a couple of days after the 2024 presidential election, I felt like some strange change happened to me all of a sudden. Something very weird and strange happened suddenly. I really feel different, in the worst way possible. PLEASE READ THIS VERY, VERY, VERY CAREFULLY! I literally don't care about the president's polices and politics at all. I am not attached to it whatsoever at all. It literally has nothing to do with politics and the agenda of the president. I don't even hate or like the president. I am neutral and don't care about his policies at all. This is not related to politics at all. PLEASE UNDERSTAND THIS!
I was listening to an audiobook and suddenly, I felt some tingling and some change going on in my mind. I felt some tingling in the left side of my mind and something slowly started to disappear from my head immediately. When this happened, I felt like my intellectual side, my creative abilities, my imagination, my inner self, being and everything that makes up with me as a person slowly disappeared or vanished overnight somehow. I feel like there's some kind of random change or something deeper than this that affected me. The vibe around my world felt different. I am not the same person anymore and it's like everything that I described about myself as a human being slowly disappeared immediately. I feel like my discernment and logical/intellectual guard to discern when people have dark and malicious intentions against me has been diminished or severely weakened. I feel like something inside of me has been weakened or died down or disappeared somehow. It's like my actual inner being/soul/spirit or whatever it is that is the real me has been beaten down and limited and restricted to a certain level. This is hard to explain and describe as well.
This is extremely painful with what I am dealing with because I don't feel like I have the capacity to change my life like I always wanted to. The biggest issue that is affecting me so badly now is my personality, identity and way of reasoning has been slowly erasing day by day and I am literally starting to see that I don't reason or think or behave the same way that I always used to. This is all for the worst. I can't imagine, brainstorm, think, be creative, etc at all. I am completely confused and stuck all the time. I have something wrong with me and I am looking for some type of explanation. I used to be into improving myself overall but then it all vanished completely. I will not accept that this is mental illness because this just happened immediately out of nowhere just like that and it's not good. It's no way that this is mental health related. What kind of experience can this be? Can someone please help me?
