First of all I should tell you abit about my past and where I am with God right now. I grew up in Christian beliefs, as a born again Christian, but slid away during my teen years. I rededicated myself January 30th of this year. At this time I was extremely sick, near death, from nervous disorders. I hadn't eaten for a month. I was dehydrated, I could barely walk and I was having trouble breathing and with my heart. This was all caused by not only, not eating or drinking anything for almost a month, but repetitive panic attacks and severe anxiety. I had social anxiety from the time I was thirteen and panic attacks started when I was sixteen. So i rededicated myself in January with a group of ministers in my home. Right now I guess you could say Im still in that dark space after your salvation. Where it talks about "Seeds are only planted in darkness" and its really tough. Infact the depression and the pain emotionally has probably been worse now then ever but Im hanging in there with Jesus and trusting his plan. Now i have alot of visions and dreams. I was given the spiritual gifts of dreams and visions and I can usually interpret them easily. If not right away, within the next couple days. Yet I have had two dreams that go together recently that have left me stumped and I know that it is one of, if not the most important dream and message Jesus is trying to tell me. So please help me if you have anything to say about them let me know. The first dream happened last fall before I grew sick (ive always had issues. I inherited general anxiety, IBS and reproductive issues from my mother and GERD from my father so i have quite abit of health issues. I also redeveloped asthma thats been dormant since I was ten and Im nineteen now. I still have all these illness's and ive been praying and believing for a healing for many months now) The dream took place in an old house I use to live in with my parents and grandparents when I was a child. It was empty and abandoned and only me and my dad was there. I was begging my father not to leave me and i was screaming and crying and completely terrified. He told me he would be right back and he wouldn't be gone for lone but I was trying to tell him there was something evil stalking about the house waiting to terrorize me. He left anyway, peacefully and with a smile. As soon as he left I seen a shadow pass by outside the window infront of me and i woke up in a sweat. The other dream happened about a week ago. It was in the same house and i was talking to my mother in a room when a Moth (one of those large tan moths with the eyes on the back) fluttered past me and I remember reaching out to grab it thinking "I wonder if this is a sign from god that my transformation is coming soon" So i leave that room and go into a bedroom. In bed is a mortal form of Jesus and he's sick and huddled under the covers. Then there is a boy and as weird as it sounds the boy reminded me of a male version of myself and he was younger, about sixteen (when all the real bad stuff spiritually and physically started happening to me) He looked up at me and told me "I need help" And i told the boy "I dont know how to help you. All I can do is give you the gift of jesus" When i said that a second jesus in a spiritual angelic form came out from behind me and approached the boy. When he reached the boy he turned around and faced me and the boy dissappeared. Jesus then told me "It is time" and i asked him "for what?" and he said "it is time for your healing. it is time for me to break the chains." I looked down at me and there were old midieval shackles on my hands and bars in the doorway keeping me from entering the room where both Jesus's were. He held up his hand and instantly the chains and bars shattered. Then he motioned for the sick Jesus in bed. I approached the sick Jesus and I held my hand out for him and i said "Its okay you can get up now you're better" and he got up and both Jesus's smiled at me and dissappeared. As they left this hurricane like wind blew inside an open window and it was the most beautiful and refreshing wind. It was so strong it was stirring up everything in the house like a tornado and i felt it surrounding and engulfing me and as it did I felt my body being healed and all the pain and sickness leaving. i ran out into another room to tell my mother real quick because I was so excited i just recieved my healing and spoke to Jesus. When i was trying to tell her I was healed, she begin babbling about all these bad things and about how the wind was my grandmother dieing and it was her spirit leaving. She held up a lamp and on the lamp was the Moth from earlier and it was dead and broken. I remember thinking "Was it not my healing? Is she right? Was it something else? This can't be good the moth that signaled me is dead now" Then i looked up and a demon darted out from the room where me and Jesus just spoke and it ran into the darkness of the hallway towards the basement door. It was very tall and it was the only large demon Ive ever dreamt about, usually the demons I dream about are small It was also the only demon that was running away from me in a dream. It was running from my bedroom, my special place, back towards the basement which i believe represents the gateway to hell. It was about seven feet tall with a hunchback and it was black and rolled like smoke but dripped like black ink at the same time. it had a hog/lizard like muzzle and it held its hands close to its stomach with these foot long razor claws on each finger. It was the same figure that darted past the window and tried to get me in the first dream. The demon didn't pay any mind to me, it didn't look at me it didn't face me and it moved very fast. I started screaming and pointing "Mom theres a demon i just seen a demon!" and then i woke up sweating and crying. The things I do know, or believe. In the first dream the demon was coming towards me. I believe my dad represented Jesus. (the father) and this dream happened before my conviction started In the second dream I know the sick jesus represents myself, how Jesus takes our place on the cross and bears our burdens after we're saved. I know the chains represented the anxiety and the sickness's and i believe the fact it took place in a home of my childhood was showing when all the problems really started though i might not have noticed them. I know the wind represents the holy spirit and it was bringing my healing. And I know the demon was leaving my bedroom, or where i live,and going back to hell, or the basement door. Other then that the boy, and the conversation with my mom, not to mention the moth, all confuse me. It'd be a very simple interpretation if it wasn't for these things. Also it happened a week ago and why would Jesus come to me personally and tell me Its time, and Im still sick. It wasn't just a dream where i seen Jesus, it was like Jesus really came to me in my mind and told me face to face, if that makes sense. Please help!