Some Thoughts

[rfprewitt]

Do you ever wonder what it would be like to really surrender? To lay it all down at Jesus' feet and say "I don't want it anymore.....I'm not picking it up....I'm not taking it back.....I don't want it"? I wonder that right now. What would happen if I would lay my selfish pride aside and lay it all down at His feet. He's the one who wants it anyway right? Then I wonder how....how do I lay it all down at Jesus' feet? How do I leave it there? See my problem is that I don't trust God. Not really. I might say I do, but I really dont. I don't even trust myself most of the time. How can you have faith in God without trust? Is that even possible? I don't think so. I dont know what to do anymore. Am I crazy to think thinks like maybe I don't have to be this way anymore? IS there something more to life than what I know? What is it? What's going on? Is Jesus really here? Is he calling me? Does he really love me? Does he really care? If so, how do I believe that? How do you really surrender all?

 

[Eire_Frae]

Do you ever wonder what it would be like to really surrender? To lay it all down at Jesus' feet and say "I don't want it anymore.....I'm not picking it up....I'm not taking it back.....I don't want it"? I wonder that right now. What would happen if I would lay my selfish pride aside and lay it all down at His feet. He's the one who wants it anyway right? Then I wonder how....how do I lay it all down at Jesus' feet? How do I leave it there? See my problem is that I don't trust God. Not really. I might say I do, but I really dont. I don't even trust myself most of the time. How can you have faith in God without trust? Is that even possible? I don't think so. I dont know what to do anymore. Am I crazy to think thinks like maybe I don't have to be this way anymore? IS there something more to life than what I know? What is it? What's going on? Is Jesus really here? Is he calling me? Does he really love me? Does he really care? If so, how do I believe that? How do you really surrender all?

Hey,
I was thinking about that today really leaving all our baggage at Gods feet, i sometimes leave it there but always seem to pick it right back up again, maybe just leave a bit. A while ago i really started to wonder God was who everyone kept telling me he was because it didnt feel like he really cared but now i can see that as i was going through my hardest times God was holding me closer and hes doing the same for you. You may not feel it right now or understand it but know God loves you so much and it hurts him that you hurt but he longs for you to chat to him and tell him everything. He has an amazing plan for your life, he has things for you to do that no one else is right to do, only you. But right now God knows where your at and if all you can manage is to say God im hurting or God help me or even just to listen to a worship song then just do that, God doesnt expect you to do more than you can right now. He loves you so much and longs for all of you

 

[TheMainException]

Let me say just this....you sound so much like me that I had to look at who wrote this just to make sure it wasn't me writing it in my sleep. I have the exact same concerns and wonders. As I look down at my arm right now and see the scabs, still red and ugly, I know that I have not laid down my all before the lord. I am selfish and angry...I have been created in the image of my god...and he is my god...but I fall so often to other things. It is our sinful nature to doubt and not trust. Everyone tells you that right??? Yeah....I just wanted to be able to tell you that you aren't the only one with doubts...the problem is....it's really something you have to sort out for yourself...you will have to struggle through it and suffer to the point of understanding...but I will stand beside you in my own wonder and confusion, we can stand together if you wish. You are not alone, you will never be alone.

 

[NinadeDios777]

i've done it before with an issue other than SI. its WONDERFUL!!!! but you still struggle with the tendencies.

 

[Kahalachan]

Do you ever wonder what it would be like to really surrender? To lay it all down at Jesus' feet and say "I don't want it anymore.....I'm not picking it up....I'm not taking it back.....I don't want it"? I wonder that right now. What would happen if I would lay my selfish pride aside and lay it all down at His feet. He's the one who wants it anyway right? Then I wonder how....how do I lay it all down at Jesus' feet? How do I leave it there? See my problem is that I don't trust God. Not really. I might say I do, but I really dont. I don't even trust myself most of the time. How can you have faith in God without trust? Is that even possible? I don't think so. I dont know what to do anymore. Am I crazy to think thinks like maybe I don't have to be this way anymore? IS there something more to life than what I know? What is it? What's going on? Is Jesus really here? Is he calling me? Does he really love me? Does he really care? If so, how do I believe that? How do you really surrender all?

Awwwww...........I see you made a couple topics in this forum.

God can help you in many ways. Maybe one of us or just any other person can be sent from God to help.

Well, I hope my advice is a God send.

I don't know how you self injure, but I used to have some masochistic desires and found excersize to be a great release.

You get sore after a work out but it's good and keeps you healthy. You get a little physical pain to release emotional pain like in self injury, but it's good for you. Maybe go for a jog when you feel like self injuring? You'll be fit and happy.

 

[texannurse]

Do you ever wonder what it would be like to really surrender? To lay it all down at Jesus' feet and say "I don't want it anymore.....I'm not picking it up....I'm not taking it back.....I don't want it"? I wonder that right now. What would happen if I would lay my selfish pride aside and lay it all down at His feet. He's the one who wants it anyway right? Then I wonder how....how do I lay it all down at Jesus' feet? How do I leave it there? See my problem is that I don't trust God. Not really. I might say I do, but I really dont. I don't even trust myself most of the time. How can you have faith in God without trust? Is that even possible? I don't think so. I dont know what to do anymore. Am I crazy to think thinks like maybe I don't have to be this way anymore? IS there something more to life than what I know? What is it? What's going on? Is Jesus really here? Is he calling me? Does he really love me? Does he really care? If so, how do I believe that? How do you really surrender all?

Oh, do I ever know that feeling. But I agree with LAWise520 - it is a battle we each ultimately fight on our own. We can stand together, but it is your fight. I can say that my fight has been long and hard. I feel like I try to lay it all down at His feet every week or so. And as soon as I do, somehow it's back in my hands. I don't know how to do it, but I do hope that both of us are able to accomplish it at some point. Please pray for me as I will now do for you! He will be victorious in the end. He has to be.
In Him,
texannurse

 

[Soulwings]

Its very hard to surrender all to God. Ive wondered about this a lot - it would make it so much EASIER to bear struggles and stuff if we could just dump all our worries and concerns at His feet. But I cant do that. Im too stubborn; I keep telling myself, "Well, I CAN do this on my own." But I cant. You cant. We cant. We arent made to go through stuff like this on our own; its too heavy a burden for us to really bear.

Jesus IS really there. And He really does care. I dont know how to make you believe it; I dont know how to make me believe it about myself. But Hes there, for you, for me, for all of us. There IS more to life than cutting, starving, etc. ... there is peace and happiness somewhere; my boyfriend tells me that its found in Jesus.

Try surrendering everything to Him every day. Every time you feel yourself starting to pick it up again, dump it back down at His feet.

I hope that made some semblance of sense. Take care of yourself. Youre in my prayers. And Im here if you ever need someone to talk with.