The difference between rejecting your parents and questioning the existence of god is huge. We know our parents exist because they are in our lives, right their in front of us most the time. Their is no doubt my parents are real beings in my life.
Sure, but essentially I was just making an analogy based on the presupposition that God is real rather than making the comparison between the two. I was simply trying to point out how we may appear to God in our unwillingness to to extend anything to Him.
How did he reveal himself? And as I said before, my heart is open.
I can do my best to explain it but something like that cannot really be properly explained in words.
Basically people go through things where maybe they convince themselves something is God because they are looking for signs of God. Maybe they pray for money and they get an unexpected check in the mail. Just an example. They assume God has answered their prayer. For people like you and me that's not good enough. We know it could be complete coincidence and the individual is just trying to look for reasons to see God in things.
I found myself getting answers to pretty much all my prayers, when the prayers themselves were in line with God's will. Many times well above and beyond what I was praying for. For a long time this wasn't good enough for me, when I would get answers to prayers I would rarely if ever attribute it to God, I would simply tell myself "that worked out well."
Being generally emotional at church or at a christian rally also wasn't good enough for me. Some people also attribute this to God, but people like you and me can simply see that the environment created in these places can manipulate people into becoming very emotional even if they don't usually behave that way.
These types of typical things people use to describe God's presence were never good enough for me, and I get the impression they wouldn't be good enough for you either.
So what it is we expect? God to come down on a cloud and sit and chat with us? To hear God's voice to ring crystal clear in our heads telling us what to do? If that happened most of society would call us crazy and we might just assume we are delusional as well.
So it appears even seeing or hearing God isn't even good enough. So what exactly does it take for someone to believe? Well for some people it's easy. They just do. It just makes sense to them and they choose it. Choosing christianity is no better or worse a choice than any other belief one may choose. The important thing is that they are honest with themselves. If you are completely honest with yourself, and I think this really requires laying aside your pride, you can't go wrong.
Now for me, I found that I had to start living in accordance with God's will. What this means is that I know from studying the bible what I should and should not be doing in my life. For a long time I wasn't willing to give up many things that gave me personal pleasure but we're taking away from my relationship with God. I was essentially living just to please myself and make myself happy. This is never what God wants. And the more I tried to do this, the more unhappy I would find myself anyway. This often happens. The reason I believe is because people who live their life to please themselves, to make themselves happy start expecting things.
We really have no right to expect anything from this life. When we start expecting things we start getting upset when we don't get the things we want. Being a christian has taught me to not expect anything from life but to simply to appreciate the things I do have and since learning this I have found peace. I enjoy life to it's fullest now because I can never be disappointed, and I generally don't even get stressed out no matter how bad anything gets.
Now getting to the point of God's presence, for me, when I started living in accordance with God's will and really started to try one day things completely changed for me and I still remember it.
For the longest time, I never had any desire to read the bible. I'm talking over 10 years. I read it from time to time because I thought it would bring me closer to God, and it never really did.
I'll tell you that you can be saved and never be baptized by the holy spirit. Well one day I was baptized by the holy spirit and not sure how or why but it changed my life. I had a desire to read the bible that did not seem to be my own, and when I read the bible my perception of it completely changed. It really did become like God was talking to me, rather than I was just reading the words and trying to figure out what it all meant.
It became like the words were God's words and he was speaking them directly to my heart. Along with I felt a physical transformation. A very tangible sensation of euphoria that I can't really explain. I've only experienced this when reading the bible.
Now I've done lots of drugs as a teenager, marijuana, pcp, mushrooms and every drink in the book. I can tell you with complete honesty I've never had a high that was even comparable to what I've felt though reading the bible and praying. Getting high on a drug is a very tangible thing, we know we're not imagining it, it's a chemical alteration that affects us physically. What I've experienced in reading the bible and through prayer is even more tangible than that, so I have no reason to believe I'm fooling myself.
I also started to have a desire to show kindness to others, strangers on the street or people I knew that I never had before. Again, all these things did not at all seem to be coming from me, oddly enough I almost felt there was a foreign presence in control of me which sounds strange but it was more of in a comforting way.
Now I know in my heart I never would have experienced these things if I was trying to find God because I wanted to have some euphoric experience, which is why I'm hesitant to even share such things with people. I only found them because I had faith that God was real, I wanted to believe in Him, I desired His presence and the bible tells us God wants us to really desire His presence. And when I learned that part of that was simply swallowing my pride and being obediant to God's commands, giving Him the chance to reveal Himself to me, that's when God did. On His own terms.
You asked before how I define faith, well you could define it this way.
Faith is not believing the person behind you will catch you when you fall, faith is the actual act of falling.
Honestly this is the best I can give you, it's the truth and I believe if you are searching for God in reality it is God that is calling you. I hope you find Him but that's your choice, God can't make anybody believe in Him, He won't. He won't make anyone love Him either. If you really want to find out if God is real give Him the time of day first, and see where that takes you.
God bless and good luck.
Or maybe it's when people feel great pain, they have to imagine this higher being in them to lift themselves up. It could be just that, within them and not real.