So Sick of Sin!

[nicknack]

Hi,

I come here to say I am very sick of sin and I don't want to live with it. I do not contemplate suicide, but I have taken up a course like the settingcaptivesfree.com 60-day course to stop the sin that has overpowered me for a long time now.

I sincerely want to lead a life towards God. But for now, my heart seems to have hardened and I find it hard to feel truly sorrowful and repent. I have prayed everyday for this salvation I might someday receive.

Furthermore, several philsophies, religion, morals and idealogies have confused me very much and I am in a dilemma to believe what is truly right and true. I very much hate it. I am feeling very stressed and confused lately. Teenage development and the raging hormones seem to make it even worse.

I am so sick of the bondage of Sin. I lack a christian community and friends that truly believe. Not that I didn't try, I tried to find some people but there aren't just many and trust is another matter. I totally lack the fundamentals to lead a rightful life towards God.

The lack of sorrow and repentance to me seems to be the factor that makes me so unhappy. I have just finished a set of exams and another is coming in a month soon, I am so stressed. I can't study and I can't think well. Why doesn't God really help? I very much believe in him, and I want him to show me the way to a right life.

 

[IntimateFriend]

Hello friend. I am also sick and tired of sin... I'm so sick and tired of being sick and tired of sin. If you read Romans 7 you will find that Paul went through this same struggle too, but he found hope in the Lord Jesus Christ. That's where our hope lies my friend... its found in the person of Jesus. Until we get to heaven we will always have a problem with sin. Right now, I'm in a place where I have really nobody that could help me with this. All I could do is look unto the Lord Jesus Christ. I do have close friends but all I could do is call them... because they live in a different area. Tell you I'm not really struggling with sin... it is self. Until this me, mine, and I is dealt with by the Lord I will always be struggling with sin. I struggled with sin because I don't really want to surrender everything to the Lord. You know we are such a people that's wants to "feel." We don't really want to live by faith... because faith involves feeling not the presence of God at times. The way I live my life now is by faith... you know when I spend time with God I don't feel Him... sometimes I feel that He has abandoned me... but I do believe the Bible that God is with us all the time. This christian life is hard... Jesus said that we have to deny our self to follow Him... He said that those who live godly will suffer persecution. But my friend He also promised that He will be the strength of our life... He will always be there for us. This is the only life worth living for.

I don't really know everything that you are going through but God knows and He cares. I know it's hard, feeling that you are the only one in that kind of situation. I have my own struggles too... sometimes I feel that I could not take it anymore... sometimes I get frustrated with myself. It's hard... but this hardships has drawn me closer to the Lord. I encourage you to pour out your heart to the Lord... He loves you so much that He died for you. Let your struggles and problems draw you closer to the Lord. Don't run away from Him when you fail but instead run to Him. He's a God that knows everything about you... He's not surprise. Read psalm 139. Remember God is your perfect Father...go to Him for life's questions and problems.

My friend you don't have to feel that you have truly repented. It takes faith to know that you are forgiven. Jesus said that if we confess our sins, He is faithful to forgive us cleanse us from all unrighteousness. Do you believe this? Don't dwell in your failures... look unto God. HE is there for you. Read His word diligently and you will find freedom. All I could really say is go to GOD. Speak to your Pastor. Confide to a mature christian friend. Hope I was able to encourage you in a way. Don't fret everthing will be over soon... Jesus will come again for us. I'll be praying for you. Until next time. Love ya!

 

[TheMainException]

My dear brother...here is what I suggest, you may take it or leave it...but I beg you to try it...listen to God...spend time, instead of talking, hearing what he has to say and being silent within yourself. Here are two prayers to help you to listen...

The Jesus Prayer:
Say this on your breath in: "Lord Jesus Christ, Son of God."
Say this on your breath out: "Have mercy on me, a sinner."
Say this for as many times as you want, I recommend at least 50, but monks do this sometimes all day long (I know, a little crazy, but it really draws them close to God)

The Centering Prayer:
Say this word on each breath in and out: It can be any word that calms you and brings you to a point of thinking about God, or the "NOW" as my friend Brennan Manning says. He uses the word "now" to keep him focused on the here and now. Some sample words are: "love", "joy", "peace", "hope", "grace", "mercy", "abba" (daddy)
Some sample sentences are: "Abba, I belong to you," or "I am the beloved"
These are just samples, you can choose these or one of your own. I recommend saying this at least 100 times...don't count though, for either of them...maybe just go for about 10 or 20 minutes. After each prayer, sit in silence for a while. When thoughts come, gently return to your word.

This has really worked for me...I hope that it works just as well for you. You can even say some of the centering prayer to get your mind focused before a test. PM me if you need to let out some steam dear brother....I know, life is tough...I live a life of depression and anxiety and it taxes me daily...but somehow I've managed to get through it...God never seemed to be there, but things must have gotten done in places I couldn't see. Godbless and peace to your heart my dear brother.

 

[Blaine]

God does not expect you to be perfect. And will never feel ashamed of the sin that you have in your life. Remember that all of his Wrath was taken by Jesus on the cross. He poured it all out. Every last drop. It makes him sad that you sin, but the reason for that sadness is the real meaning. He misses you when you are away. God is a God of love. So many people have an extremely terrible misconception of God and his nature. The shame that you are feeling is probably coming from you. God is delighted in everthing that you do. And when you sin, he doesn't say "That NickNack, I'm so ashamed of his sinning, why does he keep sinning and sinning and sinning like that." God knows that we all sin. Every single person that has ever been born to this earth and ever will be. He doesn't expect us not to sin. He actually expects us to sin. God doesn't live in denial of the truth. He is truth. Ask yourself the question of what defines sin in your life. Are you speaking about major sin like pornography. Or are you talking about just spending time in your imagination. Remember that God is not like us. And does not think like us. We are fallen humans. Born dead to this world, and separated from God. Let God's acceptence of you flow to you. He is not ashamed of your sin. He has grace for it. I am not by any means saying that God's grace for us allows us to sin all that we want to. He will put it on your heart to change the sin that is destroying your life. But let it be a process that he initiates and not by your shame for yourself. I am now reading a book called the Ragamuffin Gospel. I recommend that book to you. It spoke to that area of my life.

 

[DANgerousEJ]

Wow, I totally feel the same things you are going through. I'll pray for you.

 

[nicknack]

I feel so vulnerable to temptations and yes, I am suffering under a major sin of sexual immoralities. In which I am trying to correct. I understand Jesus died for us. Something inside me just wants to follow God. There were many times I felt his absence especially in my time of depression, it was through Jesus again I got out of it.

He even introduced me books of prophecy which strengthened my faith. I am very happy to know God once again. But sin that defiles me everyday, its so sickening. You know that feeling like you fall in a ditch. It feels like that. I don't feel remorse, which is the worst part. Why can't I feel the sorrow for myself? Am I being very selfish in my feelings of having Christ in my life. I need guidance.

 

[Mebby01]

I'm sick of sick too but no one is perfect everyone is different God doesn't expect for us to be perfect. And l don't like sin l love done so many bad things in my life but l'm trying to change. But its not always easy as you think it is sin is hard to just be normal and not have any sin but its hard thing to do no one in this hole world is perfect no one is .

 

[isaiah5213]

hey there..

i posted yesterday, but lost my post, somehow, someway, so here it goes again...

i read your post, and i see you doing the same thing i do everyday. trying to verbally, and sometimes physically, beat myself up for the wrongs i do, because i think that is the best way to get me to stop doing the wrongs...
unfortunately, i then beat myself up further, because things are not changing as fast as i want them to, or my beatings didn't work, because there is no change at all.. in other words, i know that godly sorrow brings change..worldly sorrow does not. so i am trying to beat myself into godly sorrow.
yuck. i doesn't work for me, and it apparently is not working for you. (yuck to me, because i hate myself when i do that)..

first off, i think you are looking at this wrong. God gave you those hormones. and that is the deal. this is just plain out and out hormones (80 percent) working here. if you didn't have those feelings, there'd be something physically wrong w/you... and of course, God didn't make you that way. in the scriptures, the difficulty is impurity, & lack of self-discipline. so, i recommend that you pray and pray and fast. study it out in the scriptures. knowing the sin, is 1/2 the battle. the other 1/2, is trying to master God-given urges.. ugh...

i know when i was single, i got lots and lots of physical exercise. i was really skinny, cuz all the active stuff i did. i recommend you do the same. that could help you alot. and praying while you are running, jumping, doing pushups, etc etc etc...that and i didn't sleep much, cuz satan loved to try to get me in my dreams. so i would fall into my bed exhausted. but the minute my head hit the pillow, i would be out. no time to sin there...

so, prayer, fasting, and exercise. & telling others, so they can pray for you, too, which you have already done, so you're doing great.. just keep it up!

signed:

formerly barney writer (just joking, my kids swear i was the orig barney...)