so my mom finally found out

[secretx]

ok, like the title says, my mom found out. She has known pretty much from the very beginning about my SI, but she thought I had stopped for good for some years. Except I hadn't. Only stopped for about a year, just recently it has come back. And this time I went a bit crazy.

So she found out by catching me off guard. I was sitting at the computer, and she just sort of all of a sudden came towards me and started pulling off my wristband asking why I've always got it on ....
But I didn't let her see anything at that time. I showed her the next day.
So now she's talking about sending me to see someone on a regular basis, which I am very unhappy about, because I absolutely hate talking about myself, esp. feelings, to a total stranger .
For some of you who may have seen my other post, I was thinking about going to someone through the university, but now that I will be forced to see someone, I've decided not to bother at university. Because what's the point? If I would be seeing someone anyways?
So what do you think I should do?

 

[ConcreteAngel]

Hey

Well, i would probably just go to whoever and see how comfortable you feel with that particular person...it's a very personal thing.

The only thing that may be a consideration is that counsellors in uni's are normally generalists...so, depending on what sort of area you live in (like city or country), you may be able to find someone who has particular experience in helping people who struggle with SI...just a thought!

Ultimately...only you can know what you feel comfortable with...maybe just go to an initial appointment or two and suss them out...like see if you like them...

byeee
CA

 

[HolyOne87]

^i agree

Do a lot of research, and go to the one you feel most comfortable talking to. Maybe meet with each counselor you have in mind and just talk plainly with them and see how they are.

I hope you find the best one that suits your needs!

**many hugs**

 

[Mr.Cheese]

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[eccl12.13]

i think that you should tell yourself that going and seeing whoever your mom is setting you up with is a good thing. i successfully did si for nine years without anyone finding out and i really regret that; having someone find out and know that they care enough to want to help me is amazing. so i think you should try to be easygoing about getting together with a counselor and even thanking your mom for hooking the two of you up.

i have been to counselors for my si and at first, you are correct, it is extremely difficult to talk so personally about yourself. but again, the only thing i can say is that the help will be good for you, in the end. months and years from now when si is totally in your past you will look back and see not the embarrassement or fear of talking about your feelings but you will see the fact that you did what you had to do to get out of this mess you're in.

you can do this! god will help you be strong! i will be praying for you that you find the counsel you receive to be just exactly what you need to get out of this bad trap. you can do this!

 

[Annoula]

it may be difficult to open up to a stranger but on the other hand some times it's much easier to talk to a stranger.

take the chance and try to help yourself.
a self damaging behaviour is just that. self damaging.
it feels so freeing when we allow someone who cares to help us.

good luck honey!

 

[Buttermilk]

I can't add much to what has already been said, but here are some s and s for you.

 

[GreenEyed]

Hey, I know it's hard when your mom finds out. It was hard for me. I actually told her, but she kind of freaked out later. However, it ended up being really good for me and was the thing I needed to stop cutting for good.

blessings.