- Aug 31, 2006
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Hello latly i have been having troubble sleeping i though i was due to hubby's constant snoring but that isnt the main problem. I just cant get to sleep. Last night i was awake all night i didnt get to sleep until 6am this morning and i just cant sleep its like my body wont allow me too i am dead tired and have no energy and i want to sleep but i cant. I really need preyer. I have been feeling a bit depressed and maybe this is the cause. Been having petty family problems that leave me having a major headache and make me feel like i just dont want to be here anymore that i want to fade away and i feel like i cant wait for God to come down and get me and take me into his kindom. I feel that i dont matter to people in this world.
I just dont know how to handle situations when they arise and feel that when a problem does accure my whole life is falling apart and i feel un loved, and un wanted and used. The only one who loves me is my Husband, and the only one who does care about me and enjoys my company is my brother as well as hubby who loves me for me and cares about me soooooo much and honestly i cant understand why.
The other day i was on a major high because ive been praying for things for other people and their answer is yes and amen. I was wrapped to know everything was turning out for them and i still em wrapped for them.
But just i am carrying this around me and dont want it in my life is this depression or not i rrrrrrrrrreeeeeeeeallllllllllllyyyyyyyy want to cleeeeeep but cant
I just feel like i want to rip the phone out of the wall and throw it in the bin, throw my mobile out/cell away and not bother with family and sleep the world away with hubby beside me. I just wish i wasnt born into my family they are a pack of liars, free loaders and users. And they only love me n wanna deal with me when it suits them yet im ment to bend over backwards for em and have to do it if i dont im made to feel as bad as hell for it and when i stand up for myself and say what i think of how im being treated im made to be the enermy and am made to feel like a rotten cow.
AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!
GGGGGGGGGGGGRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!




I just dont know how to handle situations when they arise and feel that when a problem does accure my whole life is falling apart and i feel un loved, and un wanted and used. The only one who loves me is my Husband, and the only one who does care about me and enjoys my company is my brother as well as hubby who loves me for me and cares about me soooooo much and honestly i cant understand why.
The other day i was on a major high because ive been praying for things for other people and their answer is yes and amen. I was wrapped to know everything was turning out for them and i still em wrapped for them.
But just i am carrying this around me and dont want it in my life is this depression or not i rrrrrrrrrreeeeeeeeallllllllllllyyyyyyyy want to cleeeeeep but cant
I just feel like i want to rip the phone out of the wall and throw it in the bin, throw my mobile out/cell away and not bother with family and sleep the world away with hubby beside me. I just wish i wasnt born into my family they are a pack of liars, free loaders and users. And they only love me n wanna deal with me when it suits them yet im ment to bend over backwards for em and have to do it if i dont im made to feel as bad as hell for it and when i stand up for myself and say what i think of how im being treated im made to be the enermy and am made to feel like a rotten cow.
AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!
GGGGGGGGGGGGRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm sorry you have to deal with such family problems. I don't really have any advice, but I understand some of those feelings. Sometimes I can get through without feeling used, but that's only when I see that it is a blessing to serve others, we serve Christ through serving others. I know how hard it is to see that! I normally forget and get mad at people. But, it does work when we really believe that we are making a difference, even if our family doesn't appreciate us as much as we want them to, God does appreciate us. God does love us.
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