Slipping

[veganbunny]

Once again I'm slipping down. I can't be bothered to do anything but mope, eat and sit at the computer doing nothing but stare at a blank screen.

I took my piercings out today and wore my new clothing; all smart and classy. My boyfriend said "oh! I never knew you were changing your image completly. This will take time to get used to" he doesn't seem to like me now.

But its not just about that. Not at all. I feel so alone, so dead inside. I keep thinking "whats the point?" I'm doubting everything and I just hate myself. SO ALONE and yes i'm going on and on, I post to much rubbish in this forum, and I need to grow up.

 

[HolyOne87]

Once again I'm slipping down. I can't be bothered to do anything but mope, eat and sit at the computer doing nothing but stare at a blank screen.

I took my piercings out today and wore my new clothing; all smart and classy. My boyfriend said "oh! I never knew you were changing your image completly. This will take time to get used to" he doesn't seem to like me now.

But its not just about that. Not at all. I feel so alone, so dead inside. I keep thinking "whats the point?" I'm doubting everything and I just hate myself. SO ALONE and yes i'm going on and on, I post to much rubbish in this forum, and I need to grow up.

I know how you feel. I am exactly the same way (moping every here and there, eating, sitting at the comp..or sleeping..posting on my Xanga or on this board..)
Feel free to PM me if you'd like..I am on this 2 or 3 times a day.

I find that silly your boyfriend doesnt like you just because you are changing your image.
If you like your self-image, then thats what matters. He should learn to accept that.

I hope you will be okay.

 

[Lotuspetal_uk]

Once again I'm slipping down. I can't be bothered to do anything but mope, eat and sit at the computer doing nothing but stare at a blank screen.

I took my piercings out today and wore my new clothing; all smart and classy. My boyfriend said "oh! I never knew you were changing your image completly. This will take time to get used to" he doesn't seem to like me now.

But its not just about that. Not at all. I feel so alone, so dead inside. I keep thinking "whats the point?" I'm doubting everything and I just hate myself. SO ALONE and yes i'm going on and on, I post to much rubbish in this forum, and I need to grow up.

I feel for you, sis.

Your first paragraph was me in November. When I wasn't doing what you'd said, I was sat on my sofa in tears. I couldn't speak to anyone without breaking down.

To encourage you, it will pass and I will continue to pray for you this evening. I have to do bathtime in a bit but if you like I can come back online so that you can talk.

I believe that the biggest differences now for me compared to November, has been for me to spend just quiet moments with worship music on, sat in a room on my own with my Bible and praying. I tend to do this approx mid-night due to UCB having worship music followed by the 'Watch Word Bible'. This has been the only background noise that does not disturb my prayers. The other has been to get in touch with a Christian Counsellor, just having someone else pray over me seemed to initially pierce through my cloud about 4 weeks ago.

Can you see a Christian Counsellor? I've taken the liberty of posting a link to the Association of Christian Counsellors in the UK where you can type in your postcode to find one nearest to you:

http://www.acc-uk.org/pages/1420.htm

Big hugs to you sis, I so empathise with how you're feeling now.

 

[veganbunny]

Let me be honest;

I have never even heard of a Christian Counsellor! However, it sounds like such a great idea! I looked at the link, and found a place near to me, and looked on its website; I shall ring them tomorrow I think! Thank you so much, for the idea and the support! Thank you both for helping

 

[Lotuspetal_uk]

Let me be honest;

I have never even heard of a Christian Counsellor! However, it sounds like such a great idea! I looked at the link, and found a place near to me, and looked on its website; I shall ring them tomorrow I think! Thank you so much, for the idea and the support! Thank you both for helping

Anytime!!!

I'd never heard of this either I saw the link in the Deliverance Forum area, but I just didn't feel confident that I'd get the help I needed from the other types of counsellors. I praise G-d that I rang