slipped

[Lily76_]

Yesterday i slipped and drank half a pint of cider my sponsor call me and got me to throw the rest of the cider down the sink and drink coffee instead
went to an AA meeting after and i have been to one today at lunch time .
My husband is getting support from al alon witch he finds helpful.

I want to tell my mother about me going to AA and my drinking but my mother views anything like that attention seeking and will not understand
She said my self injury and mental health is attention seeking and basically told me the other day that because i don't work and am on disability that am lazy and that i have wasted my life.
My sponsor told me that i need to tell her and tell her to get support from al alon
If she dose not do that i have to lose contact with my mother as my sobriety is the most important thing right now before my husband and before my family .

 

[mourningdove~]

Yesterday i slipped and drank half a pint of cider my sponsor call me and got me to throw the rest of the cider down the sink and drink coffee instead
went to an AA meeting after and i have been to one today at lunch time .
My husband is getting support from al alon witch he finds helpful.

I want to tell my mother about me going to AA and my drinking but my mother views anything like that attention seeking and will not understand
She said my self injury and mental health is attention seeking and basically told me the other day that because i don't work and am on disability that am lazy and that i have wasted my life.
My sponsor told me that i need to tell her and tell her to get support from al alon
If she dose not do that i have to lose contact with my mother as my sobriety is the most important thing right now before my husband and before my family .

Our sobriety is a gift from God. I agree that we are responsible to work to protect the gift He has given us.

I will pray, that God will lead you and show you what to do, how to handle this situation ...

God bless and keep you ...

 

[madison1101]

You have to get sober for you, regardless of what your family believes or does not believe. I did a lot of things for attention, including self-injury and drinking. Your mother could be right about some of what she sees in your behavior. So what? She may, or may not, be receptive to attending Al-Anon. She is not the alcoholic, you are. What are YOU doing for YOUR sobriety. Your sobriety is not dependent on anything your mother says or does. It is dependent on what you choose to do. I could only get sober by working the 12 Steps of Alcoholics Anonymous with my sponsor.

I notice your post is mostly about your husband and your mother. Try to focus on YOU. Changing your behavior is what AA is about. Working the Steps and changing your thinking.

By the way, I am borderline personality, bipolar, and a few other things. I did a lot of acting out for attention. I admit it and move on now. I am divorced because of my acting out. My kids are all adults and have moved on to their own lives, and the only reason I have them in my life at this time is because I admitted my behavior was wrong. I don't blame my mental illnesses for my behavior. I take responsibility for my behavior and for my sobriety.

I hope you are working the steps with your sponsor. That is the only way I am able to stay sober.

Trish R.