- Jul 9, 2017
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Recently I have been sliding .... not keeping up with things at home, wanting to isolate.
A long time ago I was diagnosed with a mental illness after experiencing a very stressful time. To be honest I think most people might have crashed - there were about five major stressors all at once. The trouble is that since then I've never really got back on my feet. I think I was overprescribed medication for a long period of time, which has now been substantially reduced but still I experience lack of motivation and emotional numbness.
Anyway, fast forward to the present. I was just stepping out to take on a new work opportunity but the thing is, I have to put in some effort to do this even though its just a few hours because it involves travelling out of town for quite a distance and it looks like they want me to commit to more hours when I can. Everyone at church knows that I have been stepping out and its now become a big thing.
But, the trouble is that I am sensing that my judgement can be a little off at times - I have read that the meds I take can affect this but it could also have been due to being unwell. So already because everyone knows, and I am sensing this, already I am starting to want to pull out.
On top of this I've had physical health issues, which I never used to have before taking the meds, but which also could be due to anxiety - in particular of IBS - and also memory issues.
I would talk to someone at church about this but I'm afraid that once I tell one person it will become known to everyone. I have experienced telling one person something before which then became known to a group of people.
So, I have been wanting to withdraw, and thinking that I just don't want to be at church at the moment.
There are a couple of other issues as well contributing to this, but the main one is above - to be honest in some ways I would be content just not trying to work while i take these meds, but I believe that the bible says we are to work with our hands so I felt I had to try.
A long time ago I was diagnosed with a mental illness after experiencing a very stressful time. To be honest I think most people might have crashed - there were about five major stressors all at once. The trouble is that since then I've never really got back on my feet. I think I was overprescribed medication for a long period of time, which has now been substantially reduced but still I experience lack of motivation and emotional numbness.
Anyway, fast forward to the present. I was just stepping out to take on a new work opportunity but the thing is, I have to put in some effort to do this even though its just a few hours because it involves travelling out of town for quite a distance and it looks like they want me to commit to more hours when I can. Everyone at church knows that I have been stepping out and its now become a big thing.
But, the trouble is that I am sensing that my judgement can be a little off at times - I have read that the meds I take can affect this but it could also have been due to being unwell. So already because everyone knows, and I am sensing this, already I am starting to want to pull out.
On top of this I've had physical health issues, which I never used to have before taking the meds, but which also could be due to anxiety - in particular of IBS - and also memory issues.
I would talk to someone at church about this but I'm afraid that once I tell one person it will become known to everyone. I have experienced telling one person something before which then became known to a group of people.
So, I have been wanting to withdraw, and thinking that I just don't want to be at church at the moment.
There are a couple of other issues as well contributing to this, but the main one is above - to be honest in some ways I would be content just not trying to work while i take these meds, but I believe that the bible says we are to work with our hands so I felt I had to try.