situational depression

[janny108]

I would not say that I am habitually depressed. It's more like long term situations that can make me depressed. Like this week I've been super fatigued, going out every night, going to school, working, recording a CD, having a solo. My house is a mess, I have homework, I'm 52 years old. My husband has been trying to get a better job. I've had bleeding issues like menstruation that has put a "cramp" on my life. I'm so tired of that.

What gets me is I feel I have no real friends in church/choir. I am not an extroverted people I don't get"silly" or make wisecracks to be noticed. I tend to be a bit hard on myself too. I mean, I know I'm singing for the Lord, but I don't feel like I'm good enough. I want to feel like I'm making a difference.
When I get real tired, I just don't feel social. I'm busy with school and work and feel like I can't volunteer in church the way I'd like to.

I guess I get that from my childhood. I could never please my parents. I had a lot of insecurity growing up and when I got saved, a lot of it left. Now it seems to come and go.

Jan

 

[janny108]

I would not say that I am habitually depressed. It's more like long term situations that can make me depressed. Like this week I've been super fatigued, going out every night, going to school, working, recording a CD, having a solo. My house is a mess, I have homework, I'm 52 years old. My husband has been trying to get a better job. I've had bleeding issues like menstruation that has put a "cramp" on my life. I'm so tired of that.

What gets me is I feel I have no real friends in church/choir. I am not an extroverted people I don't get"silly" or make wisecracks to be noticed. I tend to be a bit hard on myself too. I mean, I know I'm singing for the Lord, but I don't feel like I'm good enough. I want to feel like I'm making a difference.
When I get real tired, I just don't feel social. I'm busy with school and work and feel like I can't volunteer in church the way I'd like to.

I guess I get that from my childhood. I could never please my parents. I had a lot of insecurity growing up and when I got saved, a lot of it left. Now it seems to come and go.

Jan

Also, I don't think I'm very patient with myself. I recorded my solo and I was so tired, I don't feel it came out the way I would have liked. I mean I was told to not sing with any vibrato and I feel like I sang like a kid! Esp when I sang with a real kid.
I don't make a big deal about my issues and I don't feel like I need to be the center of attention.
Jan

 

[CyberPaladin]

Janny I'm sorry your going through this I hope things turn around for you soon.

 

[Lotuspetal_uk]

Hi Jan,

A relative of mine - who'd studied Psychology - reckoned I had situational depression as well. She'd suggested that I started to eliminate those areas of my life that I didn't need to do and increase those areas of my life that I enjoyed. So for example, I'd let my house go for a wee-bit, got signed off from work etc which enabled me to physically and mentally recharge.

I've also began this latter part of the year to say no to certain things at work so that I don't overstretch myself.

Prayerfully consider what you can place on the back burner so that you can physically rest, especially with the issue of bleeding as this also will sap your energy. See if you can obtain extensions on your coursework which might enable you to catch up at a more leisurely pace.

Big 's to you sis, I can so empathise when I read your posts.

 

[janny108]

Hi Jan,

A relative of mine - who'd studied Psychology - reckoned I had situational depression as well. She'd suggested that I started to eliminate those areas of my life that I didn't need to do and increase those areas of my life that I enjoyed. So for example, I'd let my house go for a wee-bit, got signed off from work etc which enabled me to physically and mentally recharge.

I've also began this latter part of the year to say no to certain things at work so that I don't overstretch myself.

Prayerfully consider what you can place on the back burner so that you can physically rest, especially with the issue of bleeding as this also will sap your energy. See if you can obtain extensions on your coursework which might enable you to catch up at a more leisurely pace.

Big 's to you sis, I can so empathise when I read your posts.

I'm typically not this busy as I described and today I am resting. My homework is all done, the recording is done. I have nothing to put on the back burner. I typically only go out 2x a week and that is plenty. this past week I was out for 5 nights and then working on my research paper. thanks for your concern.

Yeah, the bleeding is an issue in that I'm zapped anyways both physically and emotionally. The recording was hard work and a lot of it was spent on our feet. My solo recording was a bit stressful, and thus I feel kind of self conscious about it. I feel I'm my worst critic...
Jan

 

[Lotuspetal_uk]

I'm typically not this busy as I described and today I am resting. My homework is all done, the recording is done. I have nothing to put on the back burner. I typically only go out 2x a week and that is plenty. this past week I was out for 5 nights and then working on my research paper. thanks for your concern.

Yeah, the bleeding is an issue in that I'm zapped anyways both physically and emotionally. The recording was hard work and a lot of it was spent on our feet. My solo recording was a bit stressful, and thus I feel kind of self conscious about it. I feel I'm my worst critic...
Jan

It's good to hear that you're resting Jan.

I'll still keep you lifted up in prayer, sis

 

[janny108]

I did quit my job which was only about 10 hrs a week. I really was not getting the kind of money I need. Then my husband got a massage offer for 3x a week!! That's an extra $60. Praise God!
Jan