christi.......
i myself have seen the depths of the pits of sin, seen and touched and layed down with things that make my skin crawl, and me so ashamed of myself.... i feel so dirty. and i cry, literally weep to god, "loooord help me.....please god....im dieing here"
as i lay in the remains and filth of my sin, and i see myself "oh lord i dont want that to be me i see!"
but i am overcoming this now, ive done it less and less and less, and now it is beggining to stop.
but just when everything seems grand, that filthy chain gets thrown around me again and tries to pull me back down.
like RIGHT WHEN I GET TO THE TOP OF THIS WALL, SOMETHING SNATCHES ME BACK DOWN!
it lays its claws in me casts me back into the filth, just to cry out again, night after night, years on years.
but now, thankgod im overcoming.
but i can say that just 3 days ago this thing came back and i almost lost.
but, i cried out to god! "OH LORD HELP ME! IM ABOUT TO FALL! I NEED A TOUCH, OH HELP ME GOD! NOOOOO I DONT WANT TO GO BACK!"
and right then the voice of god came to me! and said
"STAND AND REBUKE IT!" and i did, and my god, the sweetest peice came over me, ohhh gloooory, it was lovely, and i won the fight!
but i was able to do this because i had been deep in the presence of god, and was fasting, and had been boosting my faith in the word of god!
run, run to your secret place, go, spend hours in prayer, hours in the word of god, hours worshipping him, loving him, praying, reading and speaking the word of god over yourself.
it is quality time in his presence.
oh the secret place, that is where your power is, prayers that only last minutes will not touch heavon like you need it. you can rebuke the devil in a sec, but first you must have clawed your way to the thrown room, up, out of your whole, and when you attain that power, then you can wipe him out.
and when deep in prayer, its not hard, its so full of joy, and you cry but it feels so good.
how bad do you want to be free?
the greatest things from god are not cheap. they are free, but they dont come easy.
you must begin to pray and meditate on the word everyday of your life.
and when you begin to practice the presence of god, everyday of your life then the most high god will overshadow you, and cover you with his feathers, and you will trample lions, adders, young lions and dragons! psalm 91.
you will be free.
i am not a charismatic without a brain, noooooooo,
but ive been there! ive seen bondadge, really, pleeeaaase beleive me! and i am a living testimony that you can win.
and ill say this,
"resist the devil and he will flee from you"
but, before you resist him.
you have to be willing to turn and fight.
dont give up, run to your prayer place, and begin to war on him in the spirit, pray! touch heavon, and then youll change the earth.
and pratice this everyday of your life.
i do not beleive a man who has less than 1 hour alone with god everyday, is strong enough. and 1 hour is not long enough,
not if you want what jesus or john or elijah or paul or stephen had.
some men have even ventured to say that a preacher is no good is he doesnt pray atleast 2 hours a day.
thats sounds fanatical. but it reminds me of jesus' life."
im not making set laws or rudiments to follow.
but one thing is true,
without the presence of the lord, that must be paid for with time in prayer, fasting, and the word, YOU ARE NOTHING!
and the amount you pray, is a clear sighn of where your passion is.