Sin unto death

[RobertZ]

I believe at this point this would be my only hope, I have heard that this is a sin which only a believer can commit, its a sin that a believer persist to continue without ever repenting.

Eventually if a believer does not respond to Gods chastening, repent and turn from his ways God will deliver his body over to satan for the destruction of the flesh so his soul may be saved on the day of Jesus Christ.


My skin burns hot sometimes and my head feels like its on fire, I have no peace and I can feel an evil presence around me at times. Its as if God has handed me over to the enemy. I pray for peace and peace does not come, I get no answere from God when I pray.

My health is going down hill, I dont work out anymore because im so weighed down with guilt and this burden that im ashamed to show my face in public because it seems like everyone can see right through my wicked heart.

"He that hardeneth his neck after many reproofs shall suddenly be broken and that without remedy"

"The soul that sins presumptuosly reproaches the Lord rather he be a native or an alien, His soul shall be utterly cut off from among his people, his inquity shall remain on him"

There is no mercy that im aware of for the presumptuous sinner.


I know some of you will accuse me of going on feelings but I will strongly disagree with you and tell you that I know something is wrong with me as I am almost 100% certain that I am facing some sort of Judgement from God. If any of you knew me personaly you would agree with me because I am nothing at all like the happy full of life person that I used to be.


All the joy, peace and happiness has been literally ripped right out of my heart. I cant even stand to get out of the bed in the mornings because the only peace that I get is when I am sleeping.

 

[gracealone]

Robert,
Everytime you perform the compulsive activity of searching for some sort of proof or certainty that you aren't condemned to hell you end up feeling worse than ever. Everytime someone gives you just one more reassurance you find something else to drag you back into the pit. That is exactly because by doing these things you are giving the OCD obsession more weight and more validity and then it becomes stonger and more stuck in your head than it was before.
So do you suppose that every one of us who has been in your same position of dread and horror every waking moment over the stuff we''ve thought, done or said are also condemned? Do you suppose that when we were clinically depressed from the exhaustion of the mental battle of our OCD that God was judging us? Or do you think that we have a really bad mental disorder called OCD.
What kind of practical, professional, help are you getting for this? Nothing that you've done thus far has helped. Don't you think it's time try and treat the disorder in ways that have proven successful for so many of us here on the forum?
I'm so saddened at your suffering and want very badly for you to feel better. If I can feel that way, imagine just how much God wants for you to get better too.
Still praying...
Mitzi

 

[JohnnieGuy]

Robertz it is possible you could be spiritually oppressed in some way and I urge you to seek out a pastor to help you or to help you find a counsellor who will help you deal with your issues.

I believe spiritual oppression does happen as a result of a believer being in a state of habitual sin but as a believer you already have victory in Christ Jesus.

If you want to be free of your OCD (or oppression), whichever it is, you have to seek out help and be dedicated. The Lord is with you, and will never leave you.

NEVER. So get on it man. He loves you and wants you to start living for Him now. He forgives you for the porn (if you confess and repent)

You cannot lose your salvation and God will not 'hand you over.' You were bought at a price and belong to God.

Prayin for ya buddy.

 

[keryakos]

robert the sin unto death can only be done by Christians and if you had done that you would no longer be alive ..

 

[dabro]

I used to think that I was at God's Judgement and lived everyday thinking He has opened up my heart and showed everybody my sin. I think God's trying to get your attention!!!!! and yes when I was going thru that the only thing I looked forward to was sleeping cos I forgot about everything. But ya I'm not sure Robert, Um I would think your obsessing . I look at alot that I went thru when I decided to turn away from God. I rememeber you saying you repented with your first wife cos you wanted her back. I did too. I didn't have a wife but I had my best friend ripped out of my hands by God. And I wanted to do anything to get her back so I called on God for it. Believed and it didn't happen. We can't changed the way others feel and I accept it now but when I was obsessing about how much I wanted her back I turned my back on God cos He didn't give me What my flesh wanted. The the OCD kicked in and then the religous OCD and now here I am thanking God that I'm safe, Thanking him that Anna is aved and I don't have to worry anymore about her. It is very clear to me and it is so ironic to see your obsessing but it is so hard!!to see it your self. I'm no teacher or any Righteous man I'm just a Child who accepts it by faith. I'll be praying for you my Brother. Which I do believe you are a Christian and I hope you get your footing! Try not to find the answer by the ?'s your mind ask you but try to ignore that. My best wishes to you.

 

[JohnnieGuy]

I really think all of us with OCD just have to learn how to manage our negative thoughts (which are mostly our own imo) and just become firmly rooted of who we actually are in Christ Jesus and just focus on Him.

We CAN control our thoughts and dismiss nonsense. And we CAN claim our rights in Christ. All it takes is believing it, then doing it.

Ignore all lies! Don't fight it, just ignore it.

Whether they come from yourself or the enemy or the world just let em go.