Sin and Doubt

[ReadingRambo]

I have struggled so much with sexual sin that I cannot stand saying another prayer of forgiveness. At first I was content with my guilt, thinking that was the Holy Spirit's conviction but no help came. My perversions only get worse and worse. I dwell on incest and pedophilia and make myself so sick.

What bothers me too is that it has made me question God. He isn't delivering me from this, yet non-Christians are claiming to be overcoming these same sins through medical treatment (counseling and the like). It seems to me that if sexual sin can be treated then why not the rest of our sin nature? If we persist in the behavior due to ignorance and lack of help, then how can God judge us? We aren't truly rebelling against God, we are simply ill equipped.

Has anyone been where I am? My sexual sin has brought me so much doubt. I want to seek treatment but it seems inconsistent with Scripture to do so.

 

[Criada]

I don't think there's anything wrong with seeking counseling to help - if you were a member of a church which had a rite of confession it would probably provide similar relief.
Sometimes just talking things through can help - and that isn't 'unchristian'.
God loves you, and he wants the very best for you. He can heal or change us miraculously, but He also works (a lot more frequently) through doctors, physchiatrists, counsellors and so on.

If you can get help with this, go for it, and ask God to help you through it too.
Praying for you.

 

[raven1]

I think counselors may be a vessel which God uses. Just because they dont believe in God it doesnt mean he isnt helping them. I think you need to check out the obsessive Complusive board. If you dont enjoy these thoughts it may be ocd.

 

[Johnnz]

if your issue is masturbation or some form of porn you will need to sort out values for being a normal sexual person with a sex drive that God insn't going to remove, and any misuse of that biological drive. There is a lot of confusion around these issues and more clear thinking is desperately needed.

John
NZ

 

[AnthonyMichaelPraisesGod]

i too am full of doubt... everyone keeps telling me that Jesus loves me and that i should seek Him with my whole heart but if i was powerless to stop myself once, how can i think that it cannot happen again? faith is a hard thing... i believe that its a gift... but what do we do with that gift? i feel very corrupted and just out of hope.... Jesus must be REALLY REALLY good to even look upon us.... if nothing else, i feel very privledged to even know His name..... right there with you though. confused. hurt. reeling.....

 

[Johnnz]

You should never be in such a position. I can't see that something never specifically condemned, or even mentione in Scripture should become a 'faith breaker' for you. That reeks of man-made morality.

John
NZ

 

[SoldierOfGod22]

I have been where you are man. It is a dark feeling. You feel so alone and now hopeless especially when you start to question God. But He exists brother. He is watching over you. I used to always get so angry at God and even to the point where I questioned His existence because I grew up fighting homosexuality and always asked "Why me?" I still have to fight it every day but it is dying out of me the closer I become to Him. I can feel the difference. It is so much easier because I remained faithful to God and prayed during the times that I started to become weak. I understand you are going through really really difficult times right now. Even God knows that. But I assure you that He is there. If it weren't for God, I wouldn't even be typing this. He healed me when I was facing death and when there was no hope left and even when I had lived such a sinful and unholy life. What man said was impossible, I survived because for God, it was possible. We all go through struggles in our lives but God can take any bad situation and turn it good. Dont let this situation enslave you. Use it as motivation to grow closer to God because you are nothing without Him. Use this situation to let God reward you for your loyalty and love. If you choose to put up a fight against these issues and build a relationship with God, I assure you these sins, deceptions, and tricks of the devil will perish from within you. Rejoice for Jesus died because He knew you would struggle with these issues. He died so that you may be redeemed. He wants to see you overcome this. Let the blood of Jesus Christ cleanse you inside and out and empower you to the max. Dont let the enemy win this. You are a Child of God and you are worth more than anything Hell has to offer. You are better than this. Believe that God is there and believe that He will deliver you out of this. "If you have faith when you pray, you will be given whatever you ask for." -Matthew 21:22. I will be praying for you man. You can do this. Make your King proud. He will overwhelm you with happiness. I promise.