- Feb 7, 2018
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Hey, folks.
Recently, God directed me to reach a new milestone. A lot of it has to do with diligence and personal development. However, I noticed that a certain issue stands in the way of that development. Trust. Or lack thereof.
Let me explain: I am a careful person and hesitant to believe in the goodwill of men. If I notice something out of line, I never dismiss it or think of it as being harmless. No, I immediately think of the worst possible scenario that would be directed as me in particular or that would at least harm me. I do not know where those though pattern come from, but they are not welcome as they make me fearful, moody and distant from God, in a sense that loose sight of His sovereignty and become fearful of the future.
However, is it really smart to let go of suspicion and open myself to possible harmful attacks? Where is the line between being healthy cautious and shrewd as a snake, and unhealthy paranoia?
The event that triggered this thought was me looking for a shared flat in Budapest. One of the tenants of a potential flat adviced me against choosing that one, because there are no med students nearby and the uni is not very close, there are better alternatives. It may have been an well-meant advice, but what I got out of it is that she didn't want me to move in so that her friend could. The owner of another flat changed what email she was contacting me from, both of them not being private emails. Common sense would dictate that they have multiple emails, seeing as they own a lot of flats which they all rent out to students. It is what a smart entrepreneur would do. However, the though that invaded my head was that it is a scam (unlikely, seeing as they do it over a reputed website for better than 4 years, but still, there it was).
Frankly, I am not sure how to handle it.
Cheers
Recently, God directed me to reach a new milestone. A lot of it has to do with diligence and personal development. However, I noticed that a certain issue stands in the way of that development. Trust. Or lack thereof.
Let me explain: I am a careful person and hesitant to believe in the goodwill of men. If I notice something out of line, I never dismiss it or think of it as being harmless. No, I immediately think of the worst possible scenario that would be directed as me in particular or that would at least harm me. I do not know where those though pattern come from, but they are not welcome as they make me fearful, moody and distant from God, in a sense that loose sight of His sovereignty and become fearful of the future.
However, is it really smart to let go of suspicion and open myself to possible harmful attacks? Where is the line between being healthy cautious and shrewd as a snake, and unhealthy paranoia?
The event that triggered this thought was me looking for a shared flat in Budapest. One of the tenants of a potential flat adviced me against choosing that one, because there are no med students nearby and the uni is not very close, there are better alternatives. It may have been an well-meant advice, but what I got out of it is that she didn't want me to move in so that her friend could. The owner of another flat changed what email she was contacting me from, both of them not being private emails. Common sense would dictate that they have multiple emails, seeing as they own a lot of flats which they all rent out to students. It is what a smart entrepreneur would do. However, the though that invaded my head was that it is a scam (unlikely, seeing as they do it over a reputed website for better than 4 years, but still, there it was).
Frankly, I am not sure how to handle it.
Cheers