Should i really even be here?

[pockleberry]

I've been reading the posts of members in this thread and it got me thinking should i even be here posting in this thread complaing about how i feel? It seems to me that compared to everyone else I'm a fake and i shouldn't. Sure i suffer from depression and I self harm but I've not really had any experiences in my life to justify the way I feel...Maybe I'm just an over emotional kid trying to get some attention

Anyway I've decided that it's not really fair for me to talk about how things are going with me when there are ppl here who have been through real bad situations...Just wanted to say sorry that I complained about how i was feeling to any one thats read any of my posts I'm gonna try not too and just focuss on helping other ppl as much as I can

 

[Hisbygrace]

Pockleberry,
For all of us that face the anquish of depression , our problems seem over-whelming. But you are right that when we look at other peoples lives what seems big at the time seems small in comparison. Whatever troubles you does so just as much as what troubles me does. We are here to help each other through whatever situation we each are going through. Hoping you the best,
Janice

 

[Jeshu]

..Sure i suffer from depression and I self harm but I've not really had any experiences in my life to justify the way I feel...Maybe I'm just an over emotional kid trying to get some attention.

Pockleberry it is good to see that you recognise suffering in other people and that you want to help and comfort. However don't belittle your own situation too much. Depression doesn't have to be caused by horrible events in your life, if you suffer regulary from depression then you are experiencing terrible things, for depression in itself is a most horrible experience. If at times you need to fend the steam don't feel that you are being overly sensitive or emotional. Depression can be compared to a pressure cooker if you don't let the steam escape it blows up.

God bless you in your new endavour.

 

[Rosa Mystica]

I've been reading the posts of members in this thread and it got me thinking should i even be here posting in this thread complaing about how i feel? It seems to me that compared to everyone else I'm a fake and i shouldn't. Sure i suffer from depression and I self harm but I've not really had any experiences in my life to justify the way I feel...Maybe I'm just an over emotional kid trying to get some attention

Anyway I've decided that it's not really fair for me to talk about how things are going with me when there are ppl here who have been through real bad situations...Just wanted to say sorry that I complained about how i was feeling to any one thats read any of my posts I'm gonna try not too and just focuss on helping other ppl as much as I can

Depression is a very real problem- one that is not to be overlooked. People die b/c of depression.

Yes, some people may have it worse, but that doesn't mean that your problems should be overlooked just b/c this is so.

In a nutshell, yes you should be here!

 

[pockleberry]

Thanx for replying to what i said i have to admit that i probably said most of it because i was upset about a friends situation. I've always wanted to help other ppl ever since ive felt like this cause now i know what its like and no one should go through this...not even me i guess altho alot of the time i feel like i deserve it. Do I deserve help as much as anyone else here do i deserve to be listerned to at all i really dont no

 

[leigh01]

god thinks vry problem is big no matter what other people think its wat god thinks rite i selfharmed and evryone thought it was the littlest thing to do it over but i thought if god thinks its big then it must be and just kept playing

 

[KittiK]

The strange thing is...being emotionally honest about life and how we feel is how we get by. your problem may seem smaller to you because you've been dealing with them all this time. I wanted to post in the survivors of abuse...but I feel so small next to the wonderful people that are already there. My abuse was emotional, verbal and not so much physical. I think "I can handle what I've been through...there's no need to bother those beautiful members."

Even though I may never post there....I will tell you this, there is nothing more important than how we feel and how do you know that someone here may be feeling the same way and just hasn't posted it, or doesn't even know they have that problem? You never what will help someone. We are here for you, we will listen and hug you when you need it, cry when you cry and praise you for being you. Do not be afraid to be all of you, we see a shiney star waiting for a polishing

~Kitti

 

[pockleberry]

Hey thanx Kitti what u said was really cool and ment alot to me.

 

[KittiK]

:giant cyber hugs: Anytime. I meant every word.

Keep talking pockleberry. We're listening!

 

[Tyeise]

Do I deserve help as much as anyone else here do i deserve to be listerned to at all i really dont no

Yes, sweetie, you do deserve help - we are all equal in God's eyes... and He loves us all. Each one of us has days we feel like this, I think.

I've seen you here, trying to encourage others, and think that's great! It shows your loving heart! Depression isn't about what happened to you, it's often caused by many things, including chemicals you can't do anything about, inside your body. You aren't here just to complain, you are here sharing both good and bad, encouraging others and seeking encouragement, just like the rest of us.

 

[searchingforGodlyanswers]

Nothing is too big or too small for God.
You deserve just as much help and to be listened to just as much as anyone else. God made us all, and He loves all of us. And He makes the rain and sun shine on all too.

 

[StarryEyedPea]

Amen!

 

[pockleberry]

hey thanx guys what uve said has really helped i dont think very much of myself but i can now understnd that maybe ppl here do wanna help me just as much as i wanna help them

 

[KittiK]

Everyone matters

 

[heffalump_hunter]

Pockleberry,
For all of us that face the anquish of depression , our problems seem over-whelming. But you are right that when we look at other peoples lives what seems big at the time seems small in comparison. Whatever troubles you does so just as much as what troubles me does. We are here to help each other through whatever situation we each are going through. Hoping you the best,
Janice

I'd just like to echo what Hisbygrace said Pockleberry,

we are here to help each other. Aside from a God and a good doctor the best help you can get is group support. We're all in this together in a sense. Our troubles may be different, but that doesn't mean that one persons is less than the others and not worthy of prayer or support. So I think you deserve a

 

[pockleberry]

Thankyou for what you said and thankyou for the I really need it right now....I don't know what i'm doing a should be asleep in bed but thats not happening at the moment it sucks cause it's proving my dr right that i cant cope off medication but i hate being on it soo much!

 

[Tyeise]

Pockleberry - you may hate medication, but you may also need to come to terms with it. I'm not a fan of medication myself, but I've been on it for about 10 years now. I don't like who I am when I'm not on it. I finally gave in when I was told it was like being a diabetic... I may need it the rest of my life, like they need insulin.

 

[pockleberry]

I know ppl have told me loads of times that depression is an illness and all that but i still dont wanna go back on medication I don't like who I am whether i'm on meds or not ive been on two different types and neither seemed to help in fact the last stuff i was on made me feel worse i spent alot of time feeling suicidal

 

[beetlequeendiva]

depression is an illness - and no-one will made you go on medication but sometimes it's for the best. i have changed meds at least 5 times and i hate it but i know it's for the best. Keep on praying - God will make you better - whether that be with or without the meds!!!!

 

[pockleberry]

I can't cope living here I need to get out living with my mum and my sis is making me ill...i had this b4 when we lived with my dad but then we moved out and everything was ok for a while...I think it's that my little sis is very attention seeking and that my mum is the one person I can't cope with being depressed it's not that I'm saying she doesn't have the right it's just that I can't handle seeing her hurt I don't know what to do if I stay here I'm gonna make myself really ill again but if I try and find somewher else to stay I'll face so many questions from my mum and everyone that knows me, plus my mum would see it as me trying to hurt her by saying that I don't wann live with her. What do I do smebody please give me some advice cause right now life isnt looking like a good option for me