I have a sexual past that I'm not proud of. I had a very unhealthy attitude toward sex in my teens and 20s. Women, and later men were there for my amusement and I saw them all as sexual objects. This caused a lack of intimacy within my marriage for many years. The first seven years of marriage, I treated her no differently than my previous conquests. It's scarred her and has caused regrets for me. Things are better between us all the time and I wish I'd known what sex within the confines of marriage was supposed to be years ago. What I wouldn't give for her to have been my first and only sexual partner. But it's our past that's made us who we are.