I feel like I go through this every few months. I look at the military as possibly something I should do. I'm not some big burly guy thinking he can "just do it". I can't explain what draws me to it, I was at a job fair and noticed the National Guard was there. After trying to ignore it for a while I decided to go talk to the recruiter. We started talking and making small conversation here and there. She said I should go for the chaplain's assistant and then if I wanted to, I could get the college training for Chaplain for basically free. But to have the training and experience is attractive. I teach/preach and am involved in service and outreach to the community. To alleviate poverty and aid my countrymen. This is why military service is appealing. I want to serve my fellow man in anyway that I can, I want to be an example of Christ's workmanship. What I am about to say next might sound selfish and offensive to military men and women. Another reason is I am considering enlisting is so I can understand people more. I am not a sheltered bible college student, but I reach out to people and try to understand everything they are going through. I'm unemployed and i feel their pain, I grew up afflicted by poverty, I understand them. My parents divorced and never went to church or spoke of Christ, I get those people too.
When my best friend committed suicide while I was playing church and preaching and feeling good about myself, it sent me back down hard. I felt his blood was on my hands. I reached a point where I could forgive myself and pray to God for forgiveness several months, maybe even a year later. I decided to never rebuild the walls that God destroyed and I earnestly prayed to understand compassion and be a warrior for my fellow man. Thats what started my outreach crusade, my christian life isn't a profession to me. It's been something that has been transforming me into what I think is what a human being is supposed to be.
Neither of my parents are christian. I talked to them about my interest in the NG. They were rather indifferent and I did all the talking. My fiance naturally is rather unsure I know what I'm doing and is worried. I don't think there are a whole lot of people that know or understand what is going on inside of this head. I also understand that a chaplain assistant is required to be armed and complete basic training. I would prefer it that way. I guess I just need feedback because I'm not getting any from anyone else.
When my best friend committed suicide while I was playing church and preaching and feeling good about myself, it sent me back down hard. I felt his blood was on my hands. I reached a point where I could forgive myself and pray to God for forgiveness several months, maybe even a year later. I decided to never rebuild the walls that God destroyed and I earnestly prayed to understand compassion and be a warrior for my fellow man. Thats what started my outreach crusade, my christian life isn't a profession to me. It's been something that has been transforming me into what I think is what a human being is supposed to be.
Neither of my parents are christian. I talked to them about my interest in the NG. They were rather indifferent and I did all the talking. My fiance naturally is rather unsure I know what I'm doing and is worried. I don't think there are a whole lot of people that know or understand what is going on inside of this head. I also understand that a chaplain assistant is required to be armed and complete basic training. I would prefer it that way. I guess I just need feedback because I'm not getting any from anyone else.