Self Imposed Cages

[BornAgain54]

Hi,

As a bit of background I have had OCD for approximately 7 years and recently in cnojunction with going to Uni the 7 year "milestone" almost broke me.

I used to get attacked by all sorts of evil thoughts and because of how ocd works I ended up making self imposed rules that to confirm I was not that kind of person I had to do X -ended with me sinning and I can't break out. I don't want to but i cant stop.

I was at one point scared of saying God aloud becuase I didn't wishto blaspheme. I basically feel like im trapped in a multifaceted cage of "shields" that I was deceived into "building" and that I can't shed.

 

[Follower3]

I'll pray for you brother.
Can you give an example?
You are just going to have to change these self imposed rules if you feel they are doing no good.

 

[BornAgain54]

I gave up trying to post but I tried again later. In the correct? forum this time.

I cant post links and I hardly feel like wriggling around forum rules for my 3rd post.

Thanks for your prayers

 

[theophilus40]

There is a forum for people with OCD.

http://www.christianforums.com/f598/

That might be the best place for you to look for help.

 

[parsley]

I basically feel like im trapped in a multifaceted cage of "shields" that I was deceived into "building" and that I can't shed.

I like the way you describe it, because everyone deals with those shields and they don't always see that they are accumulating too many.

People seem to get worse at it when there are a lot of uncertainties in life, or when they've endured a lot of criticism. Each time we listen to an echo of criticism, we scramble to make sure we don't get criticized in the future. We try to make things right so we will never be criticized. But we're never successful, because people will always be critical.

O rest in the Lord, wait patiently for Him.