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Self Restraint against Volcanic Rupture
When I was a kid I saw the anger that took hold of most in my immediate family. My mother not so much, but she was afflicted with other mental issues at that time. I didn’t understand the explosive anger they would suddenly let out over such small, uncontrollable things. With my younger siblings though, it was usually an amusement for me because they’d do such comical things.
One, and only time, was when my youngest sibling was so angry at me for something I don’t even recall, kicked me on my knee. I didn’t feel a thing and in truth I thought she missed, but she crumpled to the floor, wailing. It wasn’t until she came back from the doctor that I learned she wasn’t faking her pain. She actually broke her pinky toe from that supposed kick-attack.
With a certain someone it always scared me. I remember the eyes, the look they shot me with was truly piercing. I’ve never been able to handle such volcanic anger from people even as an adult. Usually I’d go hide in my room like the child I was, or secretly get out of the house for a while until I knew it was safe to return.
Nothing bad really happened to me growing up, though I did receive a lot of verbal abuse, but I think by choosing to make myself scarce, perhaps proved nothing worse to happen.
As a Born Again, however, I never saw this coming back to haunt me. I’ve never had this burst of anger before because I’ve always had an outlet through singing, drawing and later on writing. There were things beyond my control that were happening to me all at once and I didn’t know what to do. I got angry and experienced the volcanic anger within myself like a reckoning. Right away I knew this was wrong and immediately went to God about it and just laid it all out for Him. I knew I didn’t need to because He already knows, but I think it was more for me to think things through while talking to Him.
Through this Spiritual warfare God taught me an important lesson in self control. He allowed certain things to happen to test me and teach me. God never does something ‘just cuz’, but always uses evil for our good.
To be honest, I’m still no good at dealing with such anger from others, but I can certainly say it is better than it was because of Christ. His yoke is light and I’m still learning His Way dealing with things, as we all are that are in Christ Jesus.
If you think there’s no getting away from such anger within yourself or around you, there is. Just turn to God for help and trust in Him. He may pull you out, set you straight right away, or He may have you learn to deal with it and have you turn to Him for a season, like He did with me. For me the season was long, about 6 years, but I’m glad I stuck by Him.
Like with Peter denying Christ 3 times and turning back to the plow (back as a fisherman when Christ died), Jesus came back and reconciled Peter by asking if he loved Him 3 times. Why would He do that, especially returning to what he was before becoming His disciple?
Jesus Christ teaches us to get up and dust ourselves off, and sometimes He offers us His hand as little ones need more help. The more mature in faith can dust themselves off and move forward.
Never forget Who you are Born Again after!
When I was a kid I saw the anger that took hold of most in my immediate family. My mother not so much, but she was afflicted with other mental issues at that time. I didn’t understand the explosive anger they would suddenly let out over such small, uncontrollable things. With my younger siblings though, it was usually an amusement for me because they’d do such comical things.
One, and only time, was when my youngest sibling was so angry at me for something I don’t even recall, kicked me on my knee. I didn’t feel a thing and in truth I thought she missed, but she crumpled to the floor, wailing. It wasn’t until she came back from the doctor that I learned she wasn’t faking her pain. She actually broke her pinky toe from that supposed kick-attack.
With a certain someone it always scared me. I remember the eyes, the look they shot me with was truly piercing. I’ve never been able to handle such volcanic anger from people even as an adult. Usually I’d go hide in my room like the child I was, or secretly get out of the house for a while until I knew it was safe to return.
Nothing bad really happened to me growing up, though I did receive a lot of verbal abuse, but I think by choosing to make myself scarce, perhaps proved nothing worse to happen.
As a Born Again, however, I never saw this coming back to haunt me. I’ve never had this burst of anger before because I’ve always had an outlet through singing, drawing and later on writing. There were things beyond my control that were happening to me all at once and I didn’t know what to do. I got angry and experienced the volcanic anger within myself like a reckoning. Right away I knew this was wrong and immediately went to God about it and just laid it all out for Him. I knew I didn’t need to because He already knows, but I think it was more for me to think things through while talking to Him.
Through this Spiritual warfare God taught me an important lesson in self control. He allowed certain things to happen to test me and teach me. God never does something ‘just cuz’, but always uses evil for our good.
To be honest, I’m still no good at dealing with such anger from others, but I can certainly say it is better than it was because of Christ. His yoke is light and I’m still learning His Way dealing with things, as we all are that are in Christ Jesus.
If you think there’s no getting away from such anger within yourself or around you, there is. Just turn to God for help and trust in Him. He may pull you out, set you straight right away, or He may have you learn to deal with it and have you turn to Him for a season, like He did with me. For me the season was long, about 6 years, but I’m glad I stuck by Him.
Like with Peter denying Christ 3 times and turning back to the plow (back as a fisherman when Christ died), Jesus came back and reconciled Peter by asking if he loved Him 3 times. Why would He do that, especially returning to what he was before becoming His disciple?
Jesus Christ teaches us to get up and dust ourselves off, and sometimes He offers us His hand as little ones need more help. The more mature in faith can dust themselves off and move forward.
Never forget Who you are Born Again after!
