Self-Commitment

[Mayflower1]

Yesterday was really stressful for me. I thought our apartment would flood because it has been raining a lot in Houston lately like during Alison. I had a History test today, my Mom was sick, and everything. I wanted to cut so bad yesterday but I didn't, praise God. He gave me strength.

I haven't cut now in 3 whole months!!! I am so excited!!!! I am losing count so take a little give a little, but I finally feel more normal again. I feel worthy, important, and I never want to cut again, even if I feel like I need to sometimes.

Take my word. With God as my witness and my strength, I will NEVER cut again. I have come too far and it has been too long and I am not going to let the devil get the satisfaction of pulling me down. GOD is in charge, not the LOW DOWN devil that Satan is. GOD will protect me and strengthen me when times are low, GOD will deliver me during times of trouble. GOD will keep my meds straight and my family safe. I will turn to Him to rest. You hear me? I will NEVER cut again. NEVER!!! It takes self-commitment, a red marker, and faith in God that you can do all things through Him because He strengthens us!!!

I know I haven't talked here lately. I have been hanging out in Blessing Exchange, making things light lately and keeping myself busy so I can recover easily. I am praying for all of you though, so don't lose hope and never give up. You can do it... Lily00

 

[eastside9008]

congradulations!! it takes a lot of strength to get to the point you are at. im still fighting to get there but you give people in situations similar to ours hope. you should feel great about how far you have come.

God bless
~Alex

 

[Teshi]

Congratulations, that's so awesome Your resolve is beautiful

 

[berry2000]

Wow lilly. That is awesome. And i understand the need to "take a break from self harm chatting" so to speak. Seems I am in a similar boat with you at the moment. I feel like God has really spoken to my heart espeically through a scripture reading of Mark 5 where Jesus heals the woman who had been subject to "bleeding" for 12 years. I NEVER want to cut again...and I believe God has given me the strength to do so.

Soo it's nice to know there is someone else out there. I am 4 months into it. So seems we have a lot in common at the moment. Perhaps we can hold each other accountable or something like that.