A monk fell into fornication. From then on, he committed the same sin every day. Each time after the sin, he prayed with tears in his eyes for Jesus Christ to have mercy on him. Blinded by this bad habit, he committed the sin repeatedly. Immediately he rushed to the church, knelt in front of the icon of Christ and said with tears in his eyes, Have mercy on me, oh Lord, and take away from me this temptation that makes me suffer and wounds my soul. I cant see your face so that my soul can find peace. After he said these words and left the church, he committed the same sin again. He didnt lose hope for his salvation and he came back to the church praying the same way to the merciful God: You are my witness, oh Lord, that from now on I will never commit this sin again. Oh loving God, forgive me for my past up to this moment for I have hurt You. He committed his lovely sin again. His spiritual struggle lasted ten years.
Behold, the endless mercy of our Master and Lord Jesus Christ!
Finally, one day this monk committed the same sin. He rushed to the church weeping, crying and praying with tears in his eyes to the merciful God.
When the devil saw the persistent repentance of the monk, he appeared bodily in front of the monk and with wrath questioned God saying:
Why do You accept this licentious and prodigal man who lies to You every day? Why dont You cast him into fire? You are merciful to put up with him. You are not a righteous judge, but a one-sided one. You threw me down from heaven for just one sin of arrogance, but You forgive this perpetual lying, licentious and prodigal man because he cries before You. Where is Your righteousness?
Then the voice of the Lord was heard from the altar saying:
Evil and unclean spirit, arent you yet satisfied to lead the world into perdition? Do you want to grasp also him who bows before My mercy? Can you hold so many sins against him that they counter My Holy Blood that I have shed on the Cross for him? When he commits a sin, you dont send him away but accept him happily. And you dont discourage him for YOU wish to gain him. As I am merciful and have befriended man, how can you expect Me not to show mercy on him who draws near Me in repentance? I will never reject him until he becomes My heir. I was crucified for sinners and to save everyone who comes to Me.
As soon as the devil heard the voice of the Lord, he started trembling, unable to move or say a word.
Listen carefully, devilish spirit, who calls Me unjust. I am all righteous. I will judge each one under the circumstances he is in. Behold, I will save his soul and accept him who recently returned to me in repentance and contrition because he didnt despair, but rather struggled for his salvation.
At that time, the monk gave up his soul.
My beloved readers, do you understand how ineffable is Gods love and immeasurable is His mercy? Let us not neglect our salvation. Watch out not to fall into despair.
- Saint Amphilochios