Seeking direction

[just_dont_know]

My business is in trouble. I have been praying for direction. I find myself thinking of death. I know it is wrong to commit suicide.(though I think of it daily) I have started praying for god to see fit to call me home and end my life on this earth. I have not found an answer.
I have no appetite. I just want to sleep.
Any help is appreciated.

 

[SherryWilliams]

I have also felt this way,but than I think about my pass struggles and how I over came those with Jesus assistance.It was days I did not want to get out of bed and I became a prisoner to my own depression .Thank God for giving us all a pass so we can see our improvements .In life we are going to have obstacles.You've came along way .Whose to say that your situation won't change, if it is the lords will ,because he knows what's best for you .Your life story has already been written out .Thats why I say if its the lord's will,but we can change our fate by the choices we make .I don't know your whole story ,but I know that the lord is with you even at times when he seems far away he hears and knows.Jesus felt the same way when he was on the cross when he screamed out God why have you forsaken me?It is written as you know,we consider blessed those who have preservered.You have heard of Jobs preserverence and have seen what the lord finally brought about.The lord is full of mercy and compassion James4:11 Hope this helps you,God is near you just_dont_know be patient in faith and know that he is God.

 

[mmreed]

My business is in trouble. I have been praying for direction. I find myself thinking of death. I know it is wrong to commit suicide.(though I think of it daily) I have started praying for god to see fit to call me home and end my life on this earth. I have not found an answer.
I have no appetite. I just want to sleep.
Any help is appreciated.

I know how you feel about wishing God would take you home now. For quite some time I have been dealing with medical issue after issue... it seems I am never in a normal state...there is always something sick, suffering, painful, or broken. All of this has me in a very depressed state of mind as I think about growing older.

I would love to just have a time where nothing hurts, am I am painfree and able to live a normal happy life.

Even thought it doesnt seem like it, and it seems we are all alone, god is with us. I know I often question that statement and cry out for him to heal me, or at least show me he has not forgotten me... it is hard when you do that and feel that you got no reply.

As I sit here trying to recover from surgery, unable to walk right and unable to work... I watch my finances go down the drain as each day passes. I worked so hard to save, only to have these medical issues suck away at it till its gone. That adds to the depression.

I guess there is refuge here, among others in similar situations, where we can feel no longer alone...

 

[ArmouredSaint]

My business is in trouble. I have been praying for direction. I find myself thinking of death. I know it is wrong to commit suicide.(though I think of it daily) I have started praying for god to see fit to call me home and end my life on this earth. I have not found an answer.
I have no appetite. I just want to sleep.
Any help is appreciated.

You have some prayer going up and out to you.

 

[just_dont_know]

Thank all for your support and prayers.

 

[UnitynLove]

We all have emotions, and they are here to stay. I believe one of the greatest goals of every believer should be "Emotional Stability". We should seek God to learn how to manage our emotions and not to allow them to manage us. An excerpt from the definition I found in Webster's Dictionary states that emotions are "to excite and to move out." Think about this: You're out shopping, but you've gone for just a specific item you' re in need of. You've made a commitment to the Lord to get out of debt. You've promised Him to tithe and give offerings as He directs. You've agreed to really watch your spending and not purchase things that you don't need. But now while shopping, you discovered that the stores were all having a big sale of 50 percent off the already marked down merchandise. What would you do? You get excited. The more you look around, the more excited you get. Emotions are rising higher and higher. They begin to move out (as the definition said), and part of the devil's plan is for you to follow your emotions.
God wants you to use wisdom. Wisdom says wait a little while until the emotions settle down and check if you really believe it's the right thing to do. The bible says in Colossians 3:15 to be led by peace in making decisions. Don't let your emotions make your decisions. A good statement to remember is this: "Wisdom says wait; emotions say hurry."
An emotional person is defined as: "One easily affected with or stirred by emotion; one who displays emotion; one with a tendency to rely on or place too much value on emotion; one whose conduct is ruled by emotion rather than reason."
Be honest with yourself in this area; and if you believe that you are not managing your emotions, begin to pray and seek God about "Emotional Maturity."
In the past years of my life, I experienced a lot of ups and downs, or what we call "Mood Swings." Picture a swing, up - down, up - down, up - down. This kind of behavior was hard on me, as well as, everyone around me. I felt bad about myself. People out of control always feel unhappy about themselves. God created us to operate with a free will. We choose what we will do and what we won't do. There is a God-given desire inside the believer to do the right thing. When we allow our flesh to rule, we know we are out of control; however, we are created to be operating in the fruit of self-control.
Self-control is a freedom not a bondage. You are free to use wisdom, free to obey God, free to follow the leading of the Spirit. You are free not to be pushed around by your feelings. You don't have to do what you feel like doing. You are free to do what you know is wise.
Self-control will help you feel better about yourself. When I was experiencing so many ups and downs, it also made me physically tired. It takes a lot of energy to go through all kinds of emotional changes. I noticed, as God helped me to learn to manage my emotions, I also enjoyed more energy. Maybe you should stop and ask the Lord if that's why you've been so tired lately. Do you let your emotions manage you?
My moods were hard on my family too. After I was well on my way to stability, my husband, Dave, revealed a secret. He told me that during the years I was acting up, while he would be driving down the highway after work at night, most of the time he would ponder on the thought, "I wonder what she will be like tonight?" It is really very sad to imagine a person to have to be put through that kind of situation. My husband has always been very stable, and it is very comforting to live with someone you can depend on to be level and in control all the time. He was very happy for me, and himself also, when I began getting victory in this area. Children also need a stable atmosphere to grow up in. Stability is really an important issue for all of us.
Jesus is referred to as "The Rock". That says in itself that you can depend on Him to be stable, the same Jesus all the time—always faithful, loyal, true to His Word, and mature, not one way one time and another way the next time.
Jeremiah 17:8 and Psalm 1:3 both instruct us to be like trees firmly planted. I Peter 5:8-9 (Amplified) teaches us to be well-balanced, temperate (self controlled) to keep Satan from devouring us. To withstand him, it says to be rooted, established, strong, immovable, and determined. Philippians 1:28 tells us to be constant when Satan comes against us. Psalm 94:13 says God wants to give us power to stay calm in adversity. All of these are referring to being stable. Make "Emotional Maturity" a priority goal in your life.
I'm going to close with these statements for your consideration:
1. He who lives by emotions lives without principle.
2. We cannot be spiritual (walk in the spirit) and be led by emotions.
3. Emotions won't go away, but you can learn to "Manage Your Emotions." 4. You can have emotions, but you can't trust them.

 

[Mayflower1]

Dear Just Don't Know, don't give up!!! Light is right around the corner!!! Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. I had to go in the hospital for a week because I had planned one myself... believe me, it isn't worth it though. If I can realize it, you can too!!! Just keep your head up and wade through the problem head on, trusting that God will lead you the right way and will protect you no matter what. I will pray for you and I hope that you find the way you need to go. Lily00

 

[purposedforapurpose]

My business is in trouble. I have been praying for direction. I find myself thinking of death. I know it is wrong to commit suicide.(though I think of it daily) I have started praying for god to see fit to call me home and end my life on this earth. I have not found an answer.
I have no appetite. I just want to sleep.
Any help is appreciated.

Praise God we know that God can and will do all things we just hae to put our trust in him and believe what he said is going to come to past.You are suicide is not the way, I went through a suidal battle and I had to realize God had something so greater in store for me. Satan wants you to commit suicide he wants you to give up because he see what God has for you and he doesn't like it. But I dare you to stand on God's word and call Satan the liar that he is. And claim your victory and your deliverance.

Father God, I thank you now for your servant. God he loves you and just doesn't understand the transition that you are taking him through. Grant him peace in his soul because we know that your peace surpasses all understanding. Wrap your loving arms around him and let him know you have not forgotten about him. Give him an outlook of all the great things you have in store for him. Renew his joy and spirit so that he will be able to praise you in the midst of his trials. In Jesus name, Amen.

Now all you have to do is believe and recieve all of what God is going to do because he is going to do a new thing in your life.

 

[4givn2giv4him]

I think now is the time to reach out to somebody God has placed in your midst. I felt the same way as you about a month ago.. I was very close to attempting suicide. That's when I realised that it was time for me to tell somebody. I didn't want to keep living that way. I sent a text message to a Christian friend (I was a bit embarrassed to tell her in person) and I went to the doctor. Now, things are so much better. I still struggle with depression but I am taking care of myself physically, emotionally and mentally, and spiritually.
I went to a doctor to take care of the physical side. Medication is helping me. I have not thought of suicide since. I am going to a Christian pyschologist to help me in the area of my mind and emotions. And my Christian friend is praying for me, encouraging me with Biblical truth, and helping me to seek out God- who can heal the spiritual side.

I beg you, do NOT push this under the rug. Do NOT try to ignore it. And definitely do not try to cope on your own. You don't have to live this way, you are in charge of your future and you have the power to make the decision to create a brighter future. Trust in God, He will lead you to people who can help.

We, your brothers and sisters are standing with you! Take courage! There will be a brighter day soon, you just need to reach out for it!

 

[just_dont_know]

My wife got mad at me this morning because "You are always down and in a bad mood." I want and pray to be in a "good mood" but it's not happening. I don't want to bring everyone around me down. I feel even more down after the conversation with my wife. Every time I drove by a bridge I felt live driving off, but I know that is not the answer. I just want some peace.​

 

[ArmouredSaint]

Everyone has their down times,and depressed people have them more often. I couldn't be with someone that didn't understand my depression because when it hits me,I need support most. I hope things get better for you I really do. It bothers me that married people especially can't support the one they are closest to. Can you tell her exactly what you posted above?? She needs to hear that you're suffering here.

 

[SherryWilliams]

You should try to get on some meds.That would help out with anxiety and worry ,allthough it will not ellminate the problem it may make it more easier to deal with.