Seeing spirits

[Serving Zion]

That has helped me some that it's not the same people every time that's a wonderful insight , however I have to believe all the characters in action knew of their roles. Take for example what chad said to m prior to ever going to the hospital chad prophetically said ," you're going to have to go to jail tonight, don't worry you'll like your cell" . So was it the Spirit taking over his body and uttering those words? Or was it his knowledge given to him by the Spirit on what was going to occur.

So I see the hand of God knowing my mind and my doubts in that chad told me this was going to happen hours prior to the craziness beginning as proof to me that this was not imagined. God has done that with my experiences given me proof that they happened.

People don't always remember what they've said, or they might remember it differently and in real serious possession, they can have complete blackout - total loss of control.

In that vein even my first memories , the one before birth and one after, my mother confirms my first childhood memory is a real event and it was a traumatic one that happpened when I was just barely two years old.so. My mom confirming my first childhood memory confirmed my prexistence memory, it's totally bizarre

but when I look at this I see God's hand because He knows my doubt and my actions and has planned accordingly around them to mold me in this way. I struggle with the idea I was sent on a mission from God , and I know I was (prexistence memory) and I know that sounds grandiose ,and I want to say truly my faith is weak, because even though I have seen and know the Lord I still doubt and still have gone astray ! And to that I am much weaker and ashamed then anyone. however I struggle with the "sent on a mission from God" and the great sin of denying the Lord before the evil one, and being forgiven still! as being apart of the mission!?!? or that I screwed up royally and failed, I don't understand how this works

Just trust Him, do the right thing always and you will remain without blame .. and beware of the risk of inflated ego! (1 Corinthians 13:4, Luke 17:6-10).

It is not based on deeds, so that no one may boast. For we are His workmanship—created in Messiah Yeshua for good deeds, which God prepared beforehand so we might walk in them.

 

[Serving Zion]

I have struggled with mental health issues my whole life and that is a confirmed objective fact, and I have been diagnosed with a plethora, and this has been apart of my life long struggle and affliction, some have said bi polar 2 and some have said bpd and anxiety major depression but sadly as is the case in the world every doctor sees something different

Mental Health is a secular approach to the spiritual matters we are discussing. I take a Christian approach instead, that is, to understand and heal the defect. Are you comfortable with your stability at present, and your ability to conduct yourself safely?

 

[JadedClockw0rk]

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People don't always remember what they've said, or they might remember it differently and in real serious possession, they can have complete blackout - total loss of control.

Just trust Him, do the right thing always and you will remain without blame .. and beware of the risk of inflated ego! (1 Corinthians 13:4, Luke 17:6-10).

It is not based on deeds, so that no one may boast. For we are His workmanship—created in Messiah Yeshua for good deeds, which God prepared beforehand so we might walk in them.

yes brother it has occurred to me that both predestination and freewill are true, in that God predestined us choosing us first and we also choose the Lord Jesus in faith and freewill , and it is evident and beyond a shred of doubt that we are the Lord's workmanship one of love and bringing every child of God back home and this is the Lord's glory I love you thanks for talking to me

And the puffed up part I battle within because of the revelations I relate to paul , and that's my battle the strong spirit of pride Christ Jesus overcomes with love and that reminds me of a beautiful verse 1st Corinthians 12:21 be not over come by evil, but overcome evil with good. You know that is our Father in heaven 1a 2b 2b 1a "abba" and my daughter was born on 12/21 and her middle name is grace and i know there's something unique and special and grand occurring in my life as it is in all of ours, and I am without a doubt different for what I see but I love you all God bless you all

 

[Samaritan Woman]

I have struggled with mental health issues my whole life and that is a confirmed objective fact, and I have been diagnosed with a plethora, and this has been apart of my life long struggle and affliction, some have said bi polar 2 and some have said bpd and anxiety major depression but sadly as is the case in the world every doctor sees something different , but I know your concern and love that I am experiencing powerful hallucinations that are indicative of a severe mental disorder such as schizophrenia I worry as well

I myself am bipolar but some of my symptoms can be severe as I am highly prone to catatonia and psychosis with a history of delusions (some of them paranoid) and visual and auditory hallucinations. In fact my very earliest diagnosis was a sub-type of schizophrenia (over 20 years ago). I am all to familiar with losing touch with reality, and while it can be exhilarating in a way it can also be incredibly dangerous and destructive.

If one is psychotic and it is tied to mood, then that can be indicative of bipolar disorder not schizophrenia. My recommendation to you is to become lucid enough to fully educate yourself about the various disorders psychiatrists have thrown at you along with appropriate treatment. I have a doctor who answers my questions and offers good explanations as to why I not this, that, or whatever...

 

[Samaritan Woman]

Mental Health is a secular approach to the spiritual matters we are discussing. I take a Christian approach instead, that is, to understand and heal the defect. Are you comfortable with your stability at present, and your ability to conduct yourself safely?

So are you saying that biologically based mental illness is the result of a character/spiritual defect?

 

[JadedClockw0rk]

Mental Health is a secular approach to the spiritual matters we are discussing. I take a Christian approach instead, that is, to understand and heal the defect. Are you comfortable with your stability at present, and your ability to conduct yourself safely?

The pain I experince is immense and honestly often I consider suicide and am brought to the point of utter despair but then I am comforted and so , I don't know if I am strong enough and I do fear that I may one day if this doesn't resolve in a clearer and loving picture I may take my life to end the despair.

 

[Serving Zion]

So are you saying that biologically based mental illness is the result of a character/spiritual defect?

Can you give an example of a biologically based mental illness?

 

[JadedClockw0rk]

I myself am bipolar but some of my symptoms can be severe as I am highly prone to catatonia and psychosis with a history of delusions (some of them paranoid) and visual and auditory hallucinations. In fact my very earliest diagnosis was a sub-type of schizophrenia (over 20 years ago). I am all to familiar with losing touch with reality, and while it can be exhilarating in a way it can also be incredibly dangerous and destructive.

If one is psychotic and it is tied to mood, then that can be indicative of bipolar disorder not schizophrenia. My recommendation to you is to become lucid enough to fully educate yourself about the various disorders psychiatrists have thrown at you along with appropriate treatment. I have a doctor who answers my questions and offers good explanations as to why I not this, that, or whatever...

Thank you and yes I am seeing a doctor now and I'm trying to heal both physically and spiritually but it is my sincere belief that the earthly things are reflections of heavenly things and the spiritual scar comes first

 

[Serving Zion]

The pain I experince is immense and honestly often I consider suicide and am brought to the point of utter despair but then I am comforted and so , I don't know if I am strong enough and I do fear that I may one day if this doesn't resolve in a clearer and loving picture I may take my life to end the despair.

Do you remember when you first began feeling that way? .. and are you aware of the types of circumstances that can trigger it to manifest?

 

[JadedClockw0rk]

I have been depressed as far back as I can remember , even as a child I was messed with by spirits in church I would hear whispered into my minds ear," you're Judas iscariot" and I would feel great shame as the pastor preached, and see images of Christ's cruxifiction and tormented, evil spirits would animate toys in my room and scare me as a child, and I was sexually abused and physically abused as a child, although my dad would never admit to it (the physical part) the sexual abuse occurred from a family friend. Then when I would pray to God I would have sexual thoughts in my mind towards God! So evil!! And I would be shamed! And I stopped speaking to God I just spoke of Him. And I was alone sent away to several institutions as a teenager because I was rebellious and honestly exiled for my behavior that my parents endured, and was sent to one particular institution that was shut down because of its abuse towards children and I was beat up there everyday and they wouldn't let me write letters home to my parents finally my mom knew something was wrong and she came and got me and was in tears when she saw me bruised . Afterwards I was alone I didn't relate to anyone so I wrote a lot of poetry anyway I was in the army I experienced a lot of trauama there and I have a heart problem that surfaced in my 20s that required a pacemaker installation anyway it all lead up to the point of my wife cheating on me having a child with another man and leaving me homeless when I was sick and unable to work, then I walked across He country for two years to find peace and these experiences began to happen and Jesus Christ saved me and made Himself evident in my life in a very real way and showed He was there all along, so I struggle with a great pain and trauma unspeakable things and now I've been returned home to my children live with my parents see a doctor who is treating my heart and liver disease and mental health and God says that it's time to heal now. But my pain is unmeasurable to myself and I may end my life one day if this is not resolved

 

[Serving Zion]

I have been depressed as far back as I can remember , even as a child I was messed with by spirits in church I would hear whispered into my minds ear," you're Judas iscariot" and I would feel great shame as the pastor preached, and see images of Christ's cruxifiction and tormented, evil spirits would animate toys in my room and scare me as a child, and I was sexually abused and physically abused as a child, although my dad would never admit to it (the physical part) the sexual abuse occurred from a family friend. Then when I would pray to God I would have sexual thoughts in my mind towards God! So evil!! And I would be shamed! And I stopped speaking to God I just spoke of Him. And I was alone sent away to several institutions as a teenager because I was rebellious and honestly exiled for my behavior that my parents endured, and was sent to one particular institution that was shut down because of its abuse towards children and I was beat up there everyday and they wouldn't let me write letters home to my parents finally my mom knew something was wrong and she came and got me and was in tears when she saw me bruised . Afterwards I was alone I didn't relate to anyone so I wrote a lot of poetry anyway I was in the army I experienced a lot of trauama there and I have a heart problem that surfaced in my 20s that required a pacemaker installation anyway it all lead up to the point of my wife cheating on me having a child with another man and leaving me homeless when I was sick and unable to work, then I walked across He country for two years to find peace and these experiences began to happen and Jesus Christ saved me and made Himself evident in my life in a very real way and showed He was there all along, so I struggle with a great pain and trauma unspeakable things and now I've been returned home to my children live with my parents see a doctor who is treating my heart and liver disease and mental health and God says that it's time to heal now. But my pain is unmeasurable to myself and I may end my life one day if this is not resolved

Oh my, what a beautiful soul! .. to have come through all of that, and to be who you are today... I have to take that all on board, I hadn't expected to bump into you with all of that and I just need to digest it before I can respond. Just, thanks for being here for us today, one day you will see how dear you are.. and hopefully you can find some people who are grateful for it and not just envious. You have reminded me in saying this, of another homeless person I once met. That quality of loving person is quite rare, in my experience. Give me some time to digest the info. Hang in there! (Matthew 5:4).

 

[JadedClockw0rk]

You just made me cry, thank you for your kindness , thank you everyone

 

[Samaritan Woman]

Thank you and yes I am seeing a doctor now and I'm trying to heal both physically and spiritually but it is my sincere belief that the earthly things are reflections of heavenly things and the spiritual scar comes first

Glad to hear you're under medical care. Just be careful not to (over)spiritualize your mental illness as that can lead to to self-condemnation and down a road of searching for a cure that has no end; I wasted over a decade of my life doing just that and it was incredibly destructive to my life and inner peace. Mental illness such as bipolar disorder is rooted in biology as an overabundance of research has shown.

 

[Samaritan Woman]

Can you give an example of a biologically based mental illness?

Yes, actually as there are several - bipolar illness, schizophrenia (and the spectrum of schizo-related disorders), and obsessive compulsive disorder.

 

[JadedClockw0rk]

Didn't mean to post lol

 

[JadedClockw0rk]

Oh my, what a beautiful soul! .. to have come through all of that, and to be who you are today... I have to take that all on board, I hadn't expected to bump into you with all of that and I just need to digest it before I can respond. Just, thanks for being here for us today, one day you will see how dear you are.. and hopefully you can find some people who are grateful for it and not just envious. You have reminded me in saying this, of another homeless person I once met. That quality of loving person is quite rare, in my experience. Give me some time to digest the info. Hang in there! (Matthew 5:4).

I hope you all would read a prayer I wrote after Jesus Christ saved me on my death bed in California , and I was being taught so much and shown so much , and I just wanted to express my love for the Lord and so I wrote this ...


O LORD,you are my light shining your Love. You have crowned me in your majesty , molding me with gladness. Lord our God , unveil your steadfast love once more, take my wheel from its shame turn it to your time, your season of holiness; your wisdom is a melody of splendor, giving to immeasurable riches,peace on the water; joy in the morning, faith in my weakness. O Lord of my salvation, who can be like you! without you we are in despair, hopeless without you. When you hide your face I am made strong, fear of loosing your love, you reaveal your faithfulness; only a moment could I not see you, faithfulness refined, conviction unvield. Peace you provide you rejoice in my victory,guiding me, my Rock, my refuge. Your voice thundering in your temple, our hearts. When my enemies lower me in their assembly, you give me strength , Lord our God you are everything, I am nothing without you and never am I without you. Thank you Father in your Sons name Jesus Christ awaiting Your Greatest promise I love you. Amen

 

[sunshine100]

does anyone else have this gift that to me has become a miserable curse, I am struggling both walking in the physical world and the spiritual world and to protect my love for the Lord Jesus Christ at any cost and my inner lamb , and it's really hard and I just wanted to know if anyone else has this gift and some experince that may give me understanding and comfort , I love you brothers and sisters and I'm really distant these days so I hardly speak and I cry a lot anyway God bless

My dear friend,I'm so sorry to hear this,I hope and pray that the lord is and will be with you at this difficult and painful time with you,you are in my prayers.

 

[SkyWriting]

O Lord it's really detailed and yes sometimes I actually witness with my eyes spirit in patterns and also outright people's spirits that sometimes wink at me, I am going to sound completely crazy and this is my walk and my shame but I just want to describe two experinces that one is quite beautiful and the other is my shame and I hate myself for it. The first experience is a memory that I have, and it's a prexistence memory prior to birth, and I was standing with God and He was formless yet somehow discernible and He was all loving and radiant and my spirit vibrated unmeasured in His love and presence and we stood there though solemnly looking upon the earth, from a distance in space perhaps on the moon because the earth appeared as a globe. Then God showed me the life I was going to live by flashing images in my minds eye it wa to be terribly hard and God wa sympathetic and loving and gave me the choice to come here. Then my next ealiest memory a part verified by my mom was a traumatic one but I saw God in that traumatic experince in the room with me smiling the same way as He was before my birth. He left these memories in hindsight because of the deep doubt and doctrines of evil I would fight , and I thank Him everyday for doing that truly my faith is weak but God knew that an I love Him forever , anyway my next experince is a long time later a lot ha happened I thought God gave up on me and I became a "atheist" denying the Lor publically but in my heart and at night while homeless I would look up and speak to God , anyway while homeless I wa saved on my death bed which is a experince itself just prior to telling God ," I'm here at the table I get the hints what do you need me to do Father" well you would think after that I would be healed and onto putting on Christ in full but no that's not what happen and I am a disgrace for what I did, satan came himself and literally challenged my faith in the flesh in a magical game of deciet and I cursed the Lord and spat on the beautiful Lamb and I was tormented by every single doctrine and spirit possession had occurred. Anyway and do you know what the Lord did? He sent angels literally to clean me out and discard the possessing spirits and dispel the notions they had succeeded in convincing me of. The the Lord Jesus walked into the hospital room I was in , though I did not see Him and He asked the Angel," what did they do to him" and the Angel didn't let me precieve the answer everything wen silent the the Lord in sympathetic love to whatever the Angel said," ooo man" anyway then the Lord asked the Angel ," does he love me?" And the Angel said in a beautiful cry " yes!" And the Lord Jesus Christ in the most beautiful child like voice immediately said ," Father I don't want to loose this one" and the matter was resolved the Angel told me to not worry over the mysterious questions so much that "you'll know when you know" and that was it, but I say all that to describe just two of my many life long profound spiritual experinces , and I am struggling to protect my love for the Lord and not let evil destroy my inner child and I am often under attack and I cry in shame and I cry when I see the precious Lamb pictures in my heart with child like eyes and what I did, but then there's a notion that what I've done is for some greater purpose that I don't understand , and I'm just anyway I speak boldly in the Lord Jesus Christ because I have seen but even though my faith is weak and I struggle and near the point of suicide and the Holy Spirit told me once two things ( I'm a dad of 3) soms of God don't kill themselves! And fathers don't kill themselves! We are strong! But I don't feel it and I don't know why I was sent here and why I've been in this traumatic life and it hurts anyway God bless thanks for considering me and loving me

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