scrupulosity

[Sonicwhite]

It never ceases to amaze me of how long I can go thinking I'm living out the christian life but really it's all fueled by fear. I said yesterday I'm done with it. It I have to live in pain motivated by OCD and condemnation than I don't want to practice this faith anymore. I can go months and months without realizing that I'm fixed on the idea that hell is closer to me than others. What really gets me is those hell fire brimstone preachers who don't have a clue what scrupulosity is and set people on fire with their tongues. I'm just tired of this walk that goes no where.

 

[Ghackman]

I understand that frustration and pain, but want to encourage you not to give up. Tell God your fears and struggles. Ask him for help. Remember, you have an illness. While your Christian beliefs may provide the content for your OCD/scrupulosity they are not the cause of it.

 

[rick357]

It never ceases to amaze me of how long I can go thinking I'm living out the christian life but really it's all fueled by fear. I said yesterday I'm done with it. It I have to live in pain motivated by OCD and condemnation than I don't want to practice this faith anymore. I can go months and months without realizing that I'm fixed on the idea that hell is closer to me than others. What really gets me is those hell fire brimstone preachers who don't have a clue what scrupulosity is and set people on fire with their tongues. I'm just tired of this walk that goes no where.

Truth be told you cant give up on faith because even if you stop doing things that you believe you should you still believe you should be doing them. So in the end you will only feel more condemed. There is no way around this you must go through it. With only what a man can do that would be impossable but with God all things are possible. Be encouraged the scripture say that if you fear you are not perfect in love. I know that does not sound encouraging but let me explain. there was a time when I felt like God was punishing me. then he showed me in Scripture where he chastises those he loves. the scripture continues to say perfect love casts out all fear. The word perfect does not mean with out any fault but is a word for maturity my point being that you can still mature into his love which will put an end to all fear. I will not pretend this will be quick maturity is not a switch but a process.
however to encourage to use for today consider why Romans says there is no condemnation to those in Christ Jesus. This means God is not condemning you (although you may come condem yourself)if your faith is in Christ shed blood. To do so would mean his blood was not full payment. Trust that price was more than enough. also remember the Apostle John tells us that if our heart condemn us God is greater than our hearts. Lay your whole life before him and trust him to sort it out.

 

[Gods warrior 1]

Father I pray for my brother SonicWhite please comfort him and encourage him thank you Jesus Amen. God loves you. He has got you and won't let you go. Let go and let God take your stress. As I say this to you I say it to myself. God loves you.

 

[Sonicwhite]

Thank you all, I'm going in patient. I can't handle the high's and lows that I'm going thru. Please pray that God works over this leap of faith. To be free of medication I don't need and make sure they don't yank me off of klonopin. I'm taking my script to prove to them that I am taking it right. Please pray that I don't getting sicker but I start to heal.

 

[Christian-Catholic]

Thank you all, I'm going in patient. I can't handle the high's and lows that I'm going thru. Please pray that God works over this leap of faith. To be free of medication I don't need and make sure they don't yank me off of klonopin. I'm taking my script to prove to them that I am taking it right. Please pray that I don't getting sicker but I start to heal.

Sonic,First off I want to say that I totally agree with you on the fire and brimstone preachers. Someone should speak up against them as I have seen them bring fear to their brethren when they should be showing them Christ's love.

Just remember one thing my friend, your faith is not determined by feelings or your highs and lows. Christ will never refuse to let you go and he understands that you have a disorder (believe me I go through it as well, and have been through hell in this area), and he not only will not hold these ups and downs against, he actually loves you even more because you have been so courageous throughout it all

I have been off my meds for 4 months and if it was a perfect world with no stress I could stay off them forever.

Just remember that especially during this time Christ will be even more lenient on you because he knows what you are going through, he knows you through and through.