Scared

[ChristInAction]

Ok.
Well..
last night I was at a caberay, (a dance thing for my mums bf daughter). I sat down while mums bf went away b'coz this other girl took my set. He came back & sat in his seat & as he was sittin down but his hand on my back. Which I tryed not to worry bout but he sat down & proced to run his hand down my back to my bottem. I moved away & started dancing with his daughter before he could get all the way down.
But as I've been raped by 2 different people & every guy in my family has caused me huge amonts of pain. So it really upset me.
I really dont know what to do as mum would just brush it off as a mistake or a lie by me to her bf.
I locked my door. But I was still sooooo scared. All night. (He slept over with mum. what a suprise.. she sleeps with anyone)

I really need to cut.
I start dance tomorrow & karate on saturday so I cant b'coz I'll have 2 show my arms..
I dont know what to do.

I think i'll just cut somewhere else..
no.. i'll email my friend to talk 1st.. I always feel really bad about talkin to her on sunday as I've just seen her.
GRRRR. It sucks.

 

[Aredhel]

Wow, that's some pretty scary stuff. I really don't have any advice, other than pray, pray, pray. But I WILL be praying for you. I wish you all the best, and I pray that you will find comfort and safety in Jesus, who loves you sooo much.
God bless

 

[faith177]

praying for you too, be strong, stand your ground and always trust your intuitions, keep yourself safe hun, Something happened to me like that, he put his hand where he shouldnt and I grabbed his hand fast, looked him straight in the eye and said "dont" very strongly. If you dont feel safe doing this then always make sure you are never left alone with him. hugs