scared

[kristi124]

Hey everyone. I don't really know how to talk about this but it's been bothering me and scaring me all at the same time. A few years ago I had a really big problem with hurting myself. I never really told anyone about it and somehow God gave me the strength to stop. Well I've been having really strong urges to do it again, and I don't know what to do. I've prayed but the urges still come. I don't have anyone to talk to it about because no one knows about me doing it before, I just just don't know what to do and I'm scared about getting back in that cycle again.

 

[GodOwnsMe]

*hugs* wow I'm praying for ya sista !!!!!!

well definately keep praying over stuff & God helping you maybe tell this to someone & if you totally can't .......I'd say um maybe try to not spend much time alone

 

[HesMyAll]

I am so sorry to hear about your stuggle.  My heart goes out to you. 

 I'll be praying for you.

Would it be possible for you to counsel with your pastor?  I know it is difficult to seek help for this but you really need to.  When someone has the desire to hurt themself there is a much deeper problem going on.

  

 

[seebs]

Definitely seek a counselor. Mental illnesses are like physical illnesses; the best thing is generally to seek some treatment for them. There's a lot of unjust social stigma associated with mental illness. You're not a bad person; this is just one of the weaknesses of the flesh. It's like having a sprained ankle, or something; if you treat it, it'll get better, but if you ignore it, you can get very seriously hurt.

Talk to your pastor, or your parents, or *someone*; if your school has a counselor, that person might be able to help. And if anyone tells you to "just pray", remind them that sometimes God answers prayers by sending people to do His work, and in this case, He has a large team of professional therapists deployed to Earth in case of just such an emergency.

 

[panterapat]

Kristi124,

Pray!
Find someone you can trust.
Confide in that person.
Pray!

In Christ, Patrick
PS: PRAY!!!

 

[Blessed-one]

sometimes i find strength when i promise God to be good for a week. i know.. that doesn't sound like it may work, but it did, only i was able to make a promise with him when i was 80% sure i'd do it.

It all then comes down to relying on God's strength. oh, sometimes fear helps too, fear of disappointment to God, and fear of his punishment.

you're in my prayer.

 

[carmen]

Praying for you.

 

[DaveKerwin]

I agree with what has been said. Definitely don't keep it a secret. Find people that are trustworthy and tell them (parents, pastor, close friend). Recruit their prayers and their ears. Do get help though before it gets out of control, and so that it will not be a problem in years to come.

Like it was said by seebs, you are not a bad person at all, but you have a struggle just like we all do. Struggles are just part of the human experience. There are practical ways of dealing with them. In this case I suggest counceling by a professional who understands what is going on with you.

My prayers go out for you Kristi, thanks for sharing.

 

[JourneyFaith]

I would have to agree with seebs also. You are not a bad person. But you do need to seek help as well as praying for Gods strength.

My wife suffers from bipolar and she thought she was a "bad person" for some time. But as she got treatment for it, she was able to minister to others that suffered from the same thing. She could relate to them like nobody else could because she has been there.

This can happen for you too. We will all be praying for you, that God gives you the strength to get through this and that He place people before you that will help you understand what triggers this and what to do to keep it in check.


Your Brother In Christ

Ken

 

[destiny7mn]

Kristi,

I think one thing that you really need to hear is that "You are a special person", you have value and you do not deserve to be hurt. A lot of times, when people hurt themselves, it's because they feel they deserve it, you don't.

You do need to keep talking to your Heavenly Daddy about what hurts you inside, what you are fearful, etc...he is waiting for you to let "him" be the solution and in ALL reality, he is the only solution. I am not against Christian Counsel, but let the truth be known, those counselors are {or should be} first counseled by God themselves, through his Word and maybe even the counsel of another. Just go to his word and ask him to guide you and touch his healing hands on your hurts,..he will! He loves you so much, you are very, very precious in his sight.

In Christ,

Destiny

 

[daughter of the king]

hey girl i am praying.
you can over come this.
i have a real cool poem that i will give ya but i am away at the moment, so when i get home i will find it for you.
love ya girly you are worth more than that
lizzie

 

[Christina25]

In agreement with seebs on this.. seek professional counseling. There are medical reasons you feel this way. I suffer from bipolar myself and have had those same urges and its a struggle I know. Make a promise to yourself and God each day when you wake up to not hurt yourself. Read a portion of the Bible when you feel that urge. Write painful poetry (that is my personal solution), or keep a journal of how you are feeling when that urge comes along. PM me if you need someone to talk to, I am praying for you in this time of need.

 

[Mr.Cheese]

*hug*
Sometimes you want a way to make the pain go away. Hurting yourself is a way to do this. You are so not alone. I promise you don't hurt alone. But this behavior isn't healty. Like you probably don't know that already. You need to talk to someone. This problem is almost epidemic. I think the world has gotten into such a fast pace that it has forgotten how to communicate. The young suffer the most because of it.
I recommend a good counselor. A counselor who will not judge you. Someone who will help you to deal with the issues in your life in a healthy manner. We have to learn to deal with things the right way sometimes. It is not for us on the forum to tell you what will fix you. We can love you and encourage you and tell you what things have helped us along the way.
Hang in there. Read Psalm 119:81.
*hug*

 

[Athlon4all]

I'm gonna be praying for you sister!!! I would urge you to pray, pray, pray. And also spend more and more time in the Word. Give up yourm burden to God. I know itas tough to know how to do that. I would just enpcurage ypu to just spend more and more time with the LORD alone. You might want to seek a Christian Brother or Sister for you to be accountable to. Take care and you'll be in my prayers.