S.o.s. THANK YOU FOR READING THIS THREAD WHOEVER YOU ARE! How can the Holy Ghost dwell in a sinner? I repent everyday but repeat the same sin the very next day sometimes the same day or hour. The sin is drug use. I am addicted to methadone i get from a clinic and since i have gone down 60 mg on my daily dose within the last year, my cravings have returned and I have been using some heroin . I am ashamed. I am so scared that I am a reprobate and am a sinner sowing calamity.My heart and spirit are so heavy. Yeshua is my only hope but I dont obey His Fathers Holy Commandments. I see drugs as idolatry and a sort of emotional sorcery, or pharmakaiea. No matter how hard i try to will myself away from it , my own will returns to it like a dog returning to its vomit. I am selfishly living my life saying I love Abba Father and I love Yeshua, but i seem to love following my destruction more. I pray with tears and pining and moaning and yearning and shame. I pray knowing I am completely unworthy of His salvation or redemption, I confess my sins. I verbally repent but return to the sin hating myself every moment. I fear Abba Father. I fear His judgement greatly.Hell terrifies me evidently not enough because i am the double hearted kind James and King David warned about. I am Capricorn. Satans sign. This sickens and mortifies me. Child of satan /tribe of Benjamin . I just wonder if my name has been blotted out from the Book of life already. Please pray for my eternal soul!
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Welcome to CF brother!
Praying for your walk with Christ and for healing and deliverance from drugs. Thank You Lord!
Praying for your walk with Christ and for healing and deliverance from drugs. Thank You Lord!
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ThyLovingkindness
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Hi, you seem to be familiar with scripture. Your penchant for drugs doesn't necessary mean that you're not a believer. My fervent prayer is that you get help for your addiction. Remember, the Lord loves you, and although you may question this, there's relief in sight, blessings!
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charity_22
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praying for your strength as you dwell with your battle, keep your faith and distant your self form the things that makes you sin,, i believe that you need someone who could help you to get through this, seek a professional help. we will be all glad to help you with this ordeal. in Jesus' name Amen.
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