i have a thread a couple months ago called 'trouble at home'. i used to cut preety often. but i stopped once i found my home in god. for a couple of years i have known this guy named ryan. he was my boyfriend for almost two months a while ago. he was big on smoking, drinking, and especially cutting. his mom passed when he was seven and his step mom isnt the best person in the world. his dad isnt either. i still care a great deal about him.
i was out of town a couple of weeks ago and all of a sudden i got this really bad feeling that i needed to call ryan; that something was wrong with him. i called him and i could immediately tell that something was seriously wrong. i talked to him the week before and he told me that he had cut him self preety deep on both his arms and his chest. he wouldnt tell me why. when i called him a couple weeks ago, after i had the bad feeling, he sounded the same as he had before. i knew he had been cutting. when i asked him if he was all right, he wouldnt answer me. when i started talking to him about him and suicide, he hung up the phone. i tried calling back but his brother was covering for him. his brother has done that for him several times before. someone else, who was with me, called him again and his mom answered. she told the person who called to back off and that he was fine. she didnt really care last time he attempted suicide. we didnt think this time would be any different. i was so worried about him. i ended up calling the cops and giving them his address.
the cops called ryans mom and then she called me. she called me to cuss me out. she told me i was overreacting, and i was a drama queen. she had several other choice words for me. i hung up on her in attempt to stop the yelling. she wouldnt stop yelling at me.
ryan and his mother lied to the cops. i guess you could say his mom covered for him. he called me after the cops were gone and told me that he never wanted to talk to me again. i was speechless. he hung up on me. his mom blocked my number. i have no way of getting a hold of him. i talked to several of his other friends who knew of the 'situation' and they wont call him. they think hes doing all of this for attention. i know for personal experience that you wont cut that bad for attention. you just dont do that. i dont know if hes okay. i dont know what to do anymore. his other friends wont help me. its like im the only one whos worried about him. i now him beter than he knows himself. i care about him so much.
what do i do
i was out of town a couple of weeks ago and all of a sudden i got this really bad feeling that i needed to call ryan; that something was wrong with him. i called him and i could immediately tell that something was seriously wrong. i talked to him the week before and he told me that he had cut him self preety deep on both his arms and his chest. he wouldnt tell me why. when i called him a couple weeks ago, after i had the bad feeling, he sounded the same as he had before. i knew he had been cutting. when i asked him if he was all right, he wouldnt answer me. when i started talking to him about him and suicide, he hung up the phone. i tried calling back but his brother was covering for him. his brother has done that for him several times before. someone else, who was with me, called him again and his mom answered. she told the person who called to back off and that he was fine. she didnt really care last time he attempted suicide. we didnt think this time would be any different. i was so worried about him. i ended up calling the cops and giving them his address.
the cops called ryans mom and then she called me. she called me to cuss me out. she told me i was overreacting, and i was a drama queen. she had several other choice words for me. i hung up on her in attempt to stop the yelling. she wouldnt stop yelling at me.
ryan and his mother lied to the cops. i guess you could say his mom covered for him. he called me after the cops were gone and told me that he never wanted to talk to me again. i was speechless. he hung up on me. his mom blocked my number. i have no way of getting a hold of him. i talked to several of his other friends who knew of the 'situation' and they wont call him. they think hes doing all of this for attention. i know for personal experience that you wont cut that bad for attention. you just dont do that. i dont know if hes okay. i dont know what to do anymore. his other friends wont help me. its like im the only one whos worried about him. i now him beter than he knows himself. i care about him so much.
what do i do
