roofied

[moomoo5987]

Hello I was wondering if someone could help me out. Last night I was at a bar and someone roofied me. I remember the man and he was rubbing my back and I felt really uncomfortable, but then I drank my drink and I don't remember anything else. Apparently he was kissing me all night and trying to take me home with him. My friend said that he was all over me, and got freaked out she took me back to my dorms and he followed me all the way back. I don't remember anything until i woke up in the hospital waiting room. They just thought I was really drunk even though I kept on telling them that someone had drugged me. The next morning, I got my urine tested and they said that I had been roofied.

I know that this is sort of my fault, because I was at a bar. ANd i know how lucky I am because I wasn't raped and nothing too serious happened but I still feel incredibly violated. I am a virgin, and have kissed people but have never been touched or anything, and I am so scared that he touched me and I don't remember. I am a really strong believer in God. I like to go out, but never too seriously. I feel like a terrible Christian for putting myself in that position in the first place. I feel like because I was drinking, its my fault. I am a camp counselor at a Christian camp and I feel like I let down my campers and everybody there because I went out and put myself in a situation like this. I feel too embarrassed to pray, I know God is all forgiving but I am humiliated. I feel like an idiot posting this when I am reading these stories about people who survived and fought off much worse things but I feel so disgusting. Like I never want to wear those pants again, and I need to scrub myself. I didn't feel like this until tonight, I had so much adrenaline and was just trying to make people believe me. But now that I have sat down, I feel disgusted.

 

[Tomyris]

The terrible part about rape is that it is not just physical. I am NOT downplaying the physical aspects when I say that. The emotional, spiritual and psychological trauma can be very real. You were violated even if he never touched you. On top of that you are dealing with guilt issues. Most if not all rape victims go through blaming themselves for what happened even when there is absolutely no reason to.

Ask God for forgiveness and cleansing in accordance with 1 John and trust Him to be faithful to forgive and cleanse you from all unrighteousness. That includes all the rape junk, because you are a victim of a sexual assault. That includes feelings of self-disgust, whether or not you have reason. Remember faith-fact-feeling? I suspect you are in for a roller coaster ride emotionally that you can steady out with worship and reflecting on the promises of God. It won't be easy.

There are a number of people here who can help you. Keep talking.

 

[Darkhorse]

THANK GOD you had a good friend with you!

NEVER be too ashamed to pray; God already knows everything about your situation, and it's far more than you know...

This is sexual assualt (of course), and you should report it - the bar, the guy's description, everything. Piece by piece, he may be caught.

Ask God for help, healing, and courage; I will too

And be careful about what and where you drink...:o

 

[RuthD]

It is not your fault that someone did this to you. It isn't against the law to be in a bar sometimes. The fault lies with the guy who did this and he should repent and also be arrested.

 

[Ghazkhull]

I agree with everyone that said you should report the man and the police should start an investigation at the bar to save other people from becoming potential victims of this man.

On another note, I am sorry if this may sound harsh, I hope it doesn't bother anyone, but God saved you from a terrible fate by having your friend nearby, you should be grateful and reconsider these kind of activities (going out to drink, at a bar), it may be a signal to reconsider and change the places you're going to.

but please, do report this man, for yourself and for the community.

 

[OGM]

Sexual assault
Sexual assault while person is incapacitated
Illegal distribution of a controlled substance
Illegal possession of a controlled substance

Yeah...report that creep to the police. I have the feeling you are not the first person he has done that too. He really needs to be locked up.

 

[moomoo5987]

thank you guys for taking the time to respond to me. i have been struggling a bit, things are much better with my relationship with God but I've been dealing with a lot of anxiety. i know I'm being dramatic, i guess maybe this was just the tip of the ice berg with me. Please pray for me, and you are all in my prayers as well. i couldn't report him because i didn't remember what he looked like and nobody knew his name... i hope he doesn't do it to someone else... thanks again for your responses and God bless!

 

[RuthD]

I will continue to pray for you.