Rock Bottom

[whitedove7]

I'm so sorry you are having a hard time! There is nothing to fear and what is good is that the Lord can use you during these time to lead people to the Lord. In 2 Timothy 1:7 7For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind. so we see that fear is a spirit. It is the opposite of God and is not faith. The cure is 1 John 4:18 18There is no fear in love; but perfect love casteth out fear: because fear hath torment. He that feareth is not made perfect in love. So, get in the presence of God's love and cast your cares and trust him during these times. He will fill you with peace.

Here is a promise:

Exodus 15:26 And said, If thou wilt diligently hearken to the voice of the LORD thy God, and wilt do that which is right in his sight, and wilt give ear to his commandments, and keep all his statutes, I will put none of these diseases upon thee, which I have brought upon the Egyptians: for I am the LORD that healeth thee.

 

[PorcelainHeart]

Well, I'm also having a hard time because of christians obessed with the rapture. I told my own personal story and I upset a few people on why I'm scared of the rapture. I feel very awful because I'm sick of hearing people go well the bible says this and the bible says that. I just feel lost in christinity and the world. Most people are sick of me whinning. I would stop whinning if I could see more kindness. No, I don't want the rapture to happen because I don't want people lefted behind. I guess I'm crazy thinking it's a selfish wish to want the rapture. I'm scared to death of the rapture. I don't want it to happen. So that's been adding to my depression. Sorry for getting my words mixed up. I need to pray that GOD will lift my heart and make me love follow christians.

 

[Intrepidman]

Well, I'm also having a hard time because of christians obessed with the rapture. I told my own personal story and I upset a few people on why I'm scared of the rapture. I feel very awful because I'm sick of hearing people go well the bible says this and the bible says that. I just feel lost in christinity and the world. Most people are sick of me whinning. I would stop whinning if I could see more kindness. No, I don't want the rapture to happen because I don't want people lefted behind. I guess I'm crazy thinking it's a selfish wish to want the rapture. I'm scared to death of the rapture. I don't want it to happen. So that's been adding to my depression. Sorry for getting my words mixed up. I need to pray that GOD will lift my heart and make me love follow christians.

I know what you mean. Well-intended Christians don't understand. They are lost in their own little world of happy-happy joy-joy, so they talk in their own special language. Nothing wrong with that, but that stuff just makes me sadder. All those people left behind.

And it's not whining if you are trying to reach out and tell people how depressed you are. If they had any compassion at all they would try to look at life through your eyes.

Hang in there, I understand

 

[whitedove7]

Well, I'm also having a hard time because of christians obessed with the rapture. I told my own personal story and I upset a few people on why I'm scared of the rapture. I feel very awful because I'm sick of hearing people go well the bible says this and the bible says that. I just feel lost in christinity and the world. Most people are sick of me whinning. I would stop whinning if I could see more kindness. No, I don't want the rapture to happen because I don't want people lefted behind. I guess I'm crazy thinking it's a selfish wish to want the rapture. I'm scared to death of the rapture. I don't want it to happen. So that's been adding to my depression. Sorry for getting my words mixed up. I need to pray that GOD will lift my heart and make me love follow christians.

I'm so sorry you feel the way you do! I will be praying for you.

Lord, I pray for this person that is dealing with the spirit of heaviness in her life that is giving her depression and sadness. Lord, I pray that you give her gladness and joy and peace in her life.

 

[PorcelainHeart]

Thank you! Blessings comming both of your way! It's good to have people who understand. Thank you to everyone who wrote in this tread.

 

[ceedaisy]

Marma, God has lifted you up. You have a gift of wanting to reach the lost souls! And that is so very important. The people with your same sensitive nature to the lost souls will definitely understand. I don't think it is wrong of you at all to not want the rapture to happen. This is truely a good thing!!

If I may ask, why do you need heart medication. I hope you aren't doing anything to jeopardize yourself since you don't have the medication for it right now!

 

[PorcelainHeart]

I don't want the rapture to happen, because I think even if someone is non-christian if they are very kind they don't deserve to be lefted behind. Some of the nicest people I know are non-christian. And my best friend is a non-christian but she would do anything for anyone. I just want the truly evil and cruel lefted behind. I don't want good non-christians lefted behind!

The reason I should be taking meds is I have very bad heart diease. I have been off meds for 8 years now. My mom took me off of them and I don't know if I should still be on. The reason I'm the way I am is because I was born with alot of problems. I'm learning disabled and have manic depression. It's been hard to get a guy because I have little education. All of that has made me so depressed. I can't even further myself because it's hard for me to socialize with people. I just want to be something and I been feelin in the dumps since I got out of highschool. I'm basically a pretty girl with a very low IQ.

 

[thenewageriseth]

Well, I'm also having a hard time because of christians obessed with the rapture. I told my own personal story and I upset a few people on why I'm scared of the rapture. I feel very awful because I'm sick of hearing people go well the bible says this and the bible says that. I just feel lost in christinity and the world. Most people are sick of me whinning. I would stop whinning if I could see more kindness. No, I don't want the rapture to happen because I don't want people lefted behind. I guess I'm crazy thinking it's a selfish wish to want the rapture. I'm scared to death of the rapture. I don't want it to happen. So that's been adding to my depression. Sorry for getting my words mixed up. I need to pray that GOD will lift my heart and make me love follow christians.

Oh wow, G? You really ain't alone on that one. Wow..I would FREAK if I saw the rapture happen before my eyes! I fear that I might be the one of the ones left behind! It;s so hard to be a good Christian...I've had the fear of the rapture ever since I was young...

 

[thenewageriseth]

I know what you mean. Well-intended Christians don't understand. They are lost in their own little world of happy-happy joy-joy, so they talk in their own special language. Nothing wrong with that, but that stuff just makes me sadder. All those people left behind.

And it's not whining if you are trying to reach out and tell people how depressed you are. If they had any compassion at all they would try to look at life through your eyes.

Hang in there, I understand

Amen! Dude! Amen! I felt the same way about Sherry and her friends, when 2 of her friends thought I shouldn't be drawing dire pics...like a girl cutting herself and someone shooting someone else....(it was from a cartoon....a laser gun)

 

[Intrepidman]

Amen! Dude! Amen! I felt the same way about Sherry and her friends, when 2 of her friends thought I shouldn't be drawing dire pics...like a girl cutting herself and someone shooting someone else....(it was from a cartoon....a laser gun)

I have a niece that's a cutter. I think it has something to do with being in pain and by causing herself pain it make the pain better. I'm not gonna say that the drawings are wrong, but I am concerned about the feelings behind them.

 

[Snoofles]

my niece dealt with the cutting thing too, and she told me recently, though she hasn't done it for at least two years or more, she still struggles with thoughts of it. it was "easier" for her to deal with the physical pain rather than the emotional. you should respect their feelings of showing such pictures.

 

[PorcelainHeart]

I never really knew why I cut myself sometimes, I do it when I feel really sad or depressed.

I don't think we need to fear the rapture, I don't think it's comming soon anyways. Everytime something bad happens a bunch of christians think its the rapture. If Jesus came back now he wouldn't have many people to take with him. I met alot of christians who won't help you, and when they do they tell you go and read the bible. I had alot of people push me away on this site, and it really hurts.

God Bless, everyone.

 

[thenewageriseth]

I have a niece that's a cutter. I think it has something to do with being in pain and by causing herself pain it make the pain better. I'm not gonna say that the drawings are wrong, but I am concerned about the feelings behind them.

Actually I had started to poke myself with a blunt pencil., the other night..but only briefly...I poked my thumb or my forefinger...other than that I never actually cut myself before, unless it was an accident. Cutting and self-harm that way is new to me...just learned about it this year. Seriously. Shizzle my nizzle.

 

[TheWinterGaze]

The reason I should be taking meds is I have very bad heart diease. I have been off meds for 8 years now. My mom took me off of them and I don't know if I should still be on. The reason I'm the way I am is because I was born with alot of problems. I'm learning disabled and have manic depression. It's been hard to get a guy because I have little education. All of that has made me so depressed. I can't even further myself because it's hard for me to socialize with people. I just want to be something and I been feelin in the dumps since I got out of highschool. I'm basically a pretty girl with a very low IQ.

I actually think that you have a VERY HIGH IQ.

Guys, make sure you know this

 

[PorcelainHeart]

Thank you, I supposed. I failed alot of test when I was in highschool so i feel dumb. I didn't past the TAKS test so the school thought I had no future, they basically put me in the really slow classes. I didn't pass the test because I was suffering from a eating problem then and I never take good test.

 

[Mr.Cheese]

Please don't base your intelligence on what a school says. Geez. Someone should test the schools intelligence for the nonsense they seem to enforce.

Statistically self-injurers are creative and highly intelligent.

 

[PorcelainHeart]

Texas is obessed with the TAAS and TAKS test. Teachers even get fired for it.

anyways, this guy turned me down because I have depression. In a way maybe that wasn't such a blow.

 

[TheWinterGaze]

The reason I'm the way I am is because I was born with alot of problems.

It's been hard to get a guy because I have little education.

I didn't pass the test because I was suffering from a eating problem

this guy turned me down because I have depression.

Marma, you are thinking too low of yourself - so low that you don't think you are able to make difference in your life. Marma, don't give up trying. Is there a christian counsellor in your area that you can talk to? You may not need to pay a big fee for it if you don't have a job. And I really think that he/she can help you to see yourself through God's eyes rather than your own. Please remember that you have a lot of problems needed to be resolved, but it DOES NOT determine your future. Your icon says "Don't fear your dreams", in the same way, don't fear to face challenges in front of you, so that your dreams may come true!

God Bless, and do tell me how you get on. love, Winnie.

 

[PorcelainHeart]

Thank you, I agree I'm kinda of scared to be happy. It's like I'm so used to darkness that happiness doesn't seek in. I'm also stuborn and hardly listen to people. I need to fly and face what is out there for me. I won't be anything sitting around crying all the time.

 

[TheWinterGaze]

Thank you, I agree I'm kinda of scared to be happy. It's like I'm so used to darkness that happiness doesn't seek in.

It seems that you are scared of the process to make you happy. It also seems that you are afraid of the changes you need to make to give you happiness, rather than scared of the happiness itself. You are so used to darkness and any suggested changes will surely frighten you.

I'm also stuborn and hardly listen to people.

Well, Marma, if this is the reason for your difficulty in relating to people, maybe you need to determine to do something about the stubborness.

I need to fly and face what is out there for me. I won't be anything sitting around crying all the time.

It is important you do express your emotion safely rather than bottled it up. We are here to listen. We are here to give the love you need. On the other hand, try to see a counsellor who can help you know more about yourself so that you can "fly". It is difficult to fly and face what is out there without caring support from a counsellor in you case.

Take THE FIRST STEP forward, Marma, and soon you can fly!