Riding the wave.

[romans324]

Hi everyone,
I just need to let some things out and am not sure even where to go anymore. God has been very good to me and my family. He has provided us with some of the bills and a woderful Christmas. I really am even sad just to say that after all He does I am still depressed. I really do not know why. I went to my men's group and when it was over pretty much snuck out w/o anyone noticing. I really feel disconnected from the other men and sometimes my wife as well. Last night she wanted to watch a movie with me and I didn't want too. Then she said something and I got mad and went to bed. I know the Lord is with me but I also feel so alone. The problems of the world just keep hitting me and I am looking for a way out. I can't afford to go to a doctor or even meds. I pray so much that God would just send someone to be a friend. Att first I thought He did and I helped others and was a shoulder to cry on and an ear to listen. But it seems like no one notices or cares. I could see someone hurting and compassion just makes me reach out to them, however no matter how many times I do no one seems to do it for me when I need it. Even my wife is hard to talk to because if I say depression she gets upset or I bring her down so I refuse to do it. I have trouble expressing myself not because I am a guy but because I always seemed to bother people with my petty problems.

It is just so hard, this thing called life. Even work can be because I belive I have ADD. It can be so fustrating trying to concentrate but always being distracted. Many timme I do feel like I just need to ride the wave of life. When it is storm or sunny, but it seems mostly stormy. I really do not know what to do anymore and seem to be at the end of my rope, sorry for just going and on!!!

 

[veganbunny]

I also have trouble, and feel depressed for no reason. When I am down I feel very as though God must think that I am being ungrateful for not apriecating the life he gave me.

ALso, you was NOT going on and on; this forum is here for expressing how you feel and talking about your depression, so please do no apologise!

Please hang on, and live for the good times! I am always here if you need to talk, just PM me. Your problems are not petty; if it makes you feel really bad it is a serious problem!

take care

 

[rushingwind62]

Hi everyone,
I just need to let some things out and am not sure even where to go anymore. God has been very good to me and my family. He has provided us with some of the bills and a woderful Christmas. I really am even sad just to say that after all He does I am still depressed. I really do not know why. I went to my men's group and when it was over pretty much snuck out w/o anyone noticing. I really feel disconnected from the other men and sometimes my wife as well. Last night she wanted to watch a movie with me and I didn't want too. Then she said something and I got mad and went to bed. I know the Lord is with me but I also feel so alone. The problems of the world just keep hitting me and I am looking for a way out. I can't afford to go to a doctor or even meds. I pray so much that God would just send someone to be a friend. Att first I thought He did and I helped others and was a shoulder to cry on and an ear to listen. But it seems like no one notices or cares. I could see someone hurting and compassion just makes me reach out to them, however no matter how many times I do no one seems to do it for me when I need it. Even my wife is hard to talk to because if I say depression she gets upset or I bring her down so I refuse to do it. I have trouble expressing myself not because I am a guy but because I always seemed to bother people with my petty problems.

It is just so hard, this thing called life. Even work can be because I belive I have ADD. It can be so fustrating trying to concentrate but always being distracted. Many timme I do feel like I just need to ride the wave of life. When it is storm or sunny, but it seems mostly stormy. I really do not know what to do anymore and seem to be at the end of my rope, sorry for just going and on!!!

Feeling depressed for no apperant reason can be attributed to a chemical imbalance. If the chemicals are out of whack it can trigger depression. And since you aren't medicated that could be part of the problem. There are programs that help and in some cases pay for your meds and counseling. If you make too much for them I am sure there are some places that have a sliding scale.

I know you are facing many things, romans. Things that are very difficult to deal with. I am still here if you need to talk. I am usually invisible on yahoo, but am on and off throughout the day. IM me and I will get back with you if I Am not on. If I am on (eventhough invisible) I will answer immediately.....God Bless You