I am soo ashamed and sick of this evil, dirty lifestyle I am living- one almost completely void of the Lord. He has been trying so hard to get through to me but I just keep turning away and finding "earthly desires" to fulfill that void. I have finally decided I am completely abandoning being of this earth and I am completely surrendering everything to the Lord. I praise Him for all he is doing in my life and in everyone else's on this board.