Recovery after suicidal attempts? Does it ever go away?

[ForAMomentIWillFly]

I just stopped caring again. I posted originally because I knew some hard times were coming, like being stuck on the railroad tracks with a stalled engine, and seeing the light, but instead of trying to out if my car was going to start, I pressed the locks and sat back, waiting.

My life was once based around hope, trying it with everything. I've been whittled too far. There's no point. Literally no point in trying for me. I don't post for sympathy-I post for a statement of declaration of my realization...some situations don't improve. You hit rock bottom and think it'd stop, instead it starts raining and the shovel you get tossed down whacks you in the head, before you dig deeper. Each shovel full of earth is another painstaking relapse, each pile forming a way to escape back up...but I've already sunk.

There's a reason people retake tests in school, and it's to get a passing grade next time.

 

[Johnnz]

You are not in a good place. But understanding support is just so hard to find. Formulas won't work for you. You need someone who will give you time, who will really listen without judging, who understands something of the depth and complexity of the issues you are facing, and can give practical counsel on what to do about them.

Cyberspace hugs don't really cut it, but that is where my heart is for you right now.

John
NZ

 

[ForAMomentIWillFly]

Cyberspace hugs are all I have.

I've found my answer, and my solution. It's like working a math problem over and over, finally figuring out what's wrong.

Moderators, please close.

 

[Nobility]

Closing at the request of the OP