Recently re-devoted my life and don't know what to do...

[amberjcbs]

Hi, Im new to the forum and have recently re-devoted my life to Christ after going down a road of drug addiction. I'm clean now but am struggling with something. I owe a guy $60 for pills I had bought from him. I know he will contact me wanting it but I don't have the extra money. I do have a job and a little boy (16 mo. old). I want to just do away with all the people and that chapter of my life all-together. I'm afraid that ANY contact with ANYONE from that part of my life will cause me to relapse. He's not a big-time dealer or anything just a middle-man. He buys them and re-sells...I know for a fact that he pays for everything he sells up front because i use to be his ride to get them. I say this because I know he doesn't owe anyone money.
Should I pay him? Should I answer his calls at all? Since it was illegle and sinful, does GOD require me to pay it back especially if contact with him could cause me to go right back down that road??? Please, any advice is appreciated.

 

[FormerCatholic]

I am inclined to say no, but I dont know the guy. If your dealer will continue to hassle you, then perhaps its just best to pay him and put it all behind you. If you decide to repay, then maybe get a friend to take the money over, that will avoid any temptations.

When I got of the meth, I left a fair debt to one of my dealers. I never paid him, but now he is cool with it and does not want the cash. I spent a lot of time trying to help him with life, so maybe I repaid the debt a different way.

 

[amberjcbs]

Thank you, I have been praying about it. I read in the Bible last night that we shouldnt owe anything to anyone except for love....but im not so sure if that applies to illegal obligations.

 

[prodigal brother]

Thank you, I have been praying about it. I read in the Bible last night that we shouldnt owe anything to anyone except for love....but im not so sure if that applies to illegal obligations.

make arrangements to send him the money, (small payments if possible) with no return address, or someone else's that you trust. Get rid of everyone from that part of your life, old friendships will drag you back, its critical that you break these ties that bound you, the lie of the devil is that you will go back to your old ways, rebuke that lie and keep pushing on. you can do it! I did

 

[amberjcbs]

Im hoping to have the $ tomorrow from some side work because he actually txted me today asking for it. I told him i would do my best; honestly, i wish ididnt have to face him at all. i know he's probably not going to cause any trouble over $60 because i have heard him talking about others that owe him more. I just don't know what to tell him or how to handle it if im unable to pay it all, if any tomorrow as i hope. I prayed that God will provide a way so that I CAN cut all ties with my past life.