Really dont want to die.

[canukian]

there is somthing wrong with my body that is getting progressivly worse. i knowticed it a long time ago. the first doctor laughed it off. many docs have laughed it off. it got so frustrating dealing with doctors, that i quit going for long streaches. i knew i was getting worse, but resigned myself to dying, rather than the frustration of dealing with the docs. i am not ready to die, but what, what can i do? i am so sure that i will die soon and that it was preventable.

i would really rather have no one respond to this by posting a reply, if you please.

 

[canukian]

i asked for help to doctors and loved ones, all scoffed at me untill the point where asking for help was the same as asking to be abused. i learned to keep my mouth shut and accept the fact that i was going to die and was powerless to get help. but i never really did accept it.

not reppy if you please.

 

[canukian]

thank you for not replying and keep on not replying please.

tonight pains inside me like a knife cutting. i have known the murderers for about 3 years now. the murderers bright and beautiful on the outside, with abomitable filth on the inside. in their minds righteously murdering. i pray gods will be done.

 

[canukian]

19But I was like a lamb or an ox that is brought to the slaughter; and I knew not that they had devised devices against me, saying, Let us destroy the tree with the fruit thereof, and let us cut him off from the land of the living, that his name may be no more remembered.
20But, O LORD of hosts, that judgest righteously, that triest the reins and the heart, let me see thy vengeance on them: for unto thee have I revealed my cause.

 

[canukian]

see ya in siberia. soon i think. may be forever this time. : (

 

[Daniel perl]

You must not frustrated, and have a complete faith on
God, he will help you.

 

[I am my beloveds]

Just go to another doctor also. I had to do a lot of research on the internet to find what would help me, and it's better to expand your options.. Also, confide in a pastor or someone you trust and tell them what's going on that they can pray with you. I had my friends dad pray for me and he comanded my diseases to leave. Read scriptures on healing, and know that your physical conditions are giving God glory.. I pray that you will have healing in your life and may God bless you.

 

[Joseph36]

Buddy never think like that..!!
Always think positive and enjoy your life to the fullest because no one knows that what will gonna happen next in their lives so think about it and start living your life happily...!!!