ready to give up

[katey]

i'm just feeling so low right now, i don't know how much longer i can hold on! nothing seems to be helping me at the moment. i don't wanna go back into hospital again. i just feel like i want to go to sleep and never wake up again. i can't trust myself, i don't feel safe. am so scared.

sorry i just needed to get it off my chest.

 

[Mrs. Luther073082]

Is there anyone at your home right now that you could go and spend some time with?

 

[katey]

no

 

[Daysoni]

Katey can you pm or instant message any one

 

[Ice_Princess]

i'm just feeling so low right now, i don't know how much longer i can hold on! nothing seems to be helping me at the moment. i don't wanna go back into hospital again. i just feel like i want to go to sleep and never wake up again. i can't trust myself, i don't feel safe. am so scared.

sorry i just needed to get it off my chest.

Dear Heavenly Father,
Right now I just pray for Katey and ask that you bless and protect her.Let her know that people love and value her and that she's not alone.Lord Jesus,I just ask that you comfort her in this time of hardship she is going through.I ask you this,In Jesus' name,Amen.

I am praying that God will comfort you and bless you and keep you safe from harm.You mean everything to him.God Bless You! Always know that God is with you 24/7 even when it does not always look that way.

 

[Daysoni]

Katey I'm online and on the forums now if you need an ear

 

[Mrs. Luther073082]

no

Aw. I guess it is late there. Is that why no one is around? Its midnight here.

Remember you were just posting to katylees the other day about how people care about you! I know it is hard but hang in there and one day you will be so glad that you did.

 

[katey]

Katey can you pm or instant message any one

its like half 6 in the morning here, so not really.


thanks

 

[Daysoni]

Then just stay on the forums and keep reaching out tell you feel better

 

[Ice_Princess]

Then just stay on the forums and keep reaching out tell you feel better

Yeah,let it out.

 

[katey]

Aw. I guess it is late there. Is that why no one is around? Its midnight here.

Remember you were just posting to katylees the other day about how people care about you! I know it is hard but hang in there and one day you will be so glad that you did.

i know i tried rereading that to see if it would help me but it didn't i dnt want to feel anyworse than i do now. i dont want to go abck into hospital

 

[Mrs. Luther073082]

katey, can you promise us that you will be OK this morning and if you get really scared, you'll go and get someone or call someone to be with you?

also.. random question... do you have any pets?

 

[Mrs. Luther073082]

did someone threaten to make you go back?

 

[Daysoni]

We are all here for you and it's not early in the morning where I'm from so I'm here if you want someone to listen. That's it I don't judge just listen and try to help.

 

[Ice_Princess]

katey, can you promise us that you will be OK this morning and if you get really scared, you'll go and get someone or call someone to be with you?

also.. random question... do you have any pets?

Pets make everything better.I have a dog,a kitten,a gold fish and a frog.I can talk to them about anything,and ya know,they actually listen.

 

[katey]

i can't make promises because i dnt know if i can keep them. i can only say i will try if i doget scared. yes i do i have 2 cats, ones pregant a hamster and loads of fish, oh yeah and a macaul.

they said if i had the feelings of suicide again i would be readmited.

 

[Mrs. Luther073082]

i can't make promises because i dnt know if i can keep them. i can only say i will try if i doget scared. yes i do i have 2 cats, ones pregant a hamster and loads of fish, oh yeah and a macaul.

they said if i had the feelings of suicide again i would be readmited.

Ok. Well, can you keep chatting with us? Thanks for saying you will try if you get scared.

Do you think you all will keep any of the kittens?

What is a macaul?

 

[katey]

i dnt kno how much longer can stay on here bcoz of the time and stuff and ppl will b gettin up. but will stay as long as i can.
yes we will b keeping 2 of them. i dnt think i spelt it righ, it a parrot basically i big gorgous blue one with yellow green red feathers.

 

[Mrs. Luther073082]

Well there is something to stay alive for -- kittens!

To be honest, I kind of had fun at the hospital.... I jokingly hissed at my roommate (who I got to be pretty close to) when she came in the room. It was funny. And I made sock puppets and sat in the day room and was amused whenever a therapist or doctor would walk by and look disturbed.

 

[Daysoni]

Katey tonight might be tough ecspecailly because everyone is in bed but tomorrow is another day and you'll have things to distract your thinking maybe you'll have a change of thought