i need help. my bipolar or schizophrenia is giving me rapid thoughts of thoughts hurting god, and its not my true feelings. i knowing how i love him, i can tell the different how it jumps up and ruins my real feelings. its like my body feels like it burns like acid, i knowing i love my lord with unconditional love. i trust him as loving father and i feel it, i like feel that i feel that i am running from evil in this evil. it gets harder. i one day realized that my world changed for days, and i felt it was a test to find again as the illness is messing it up. i had find what the bipolar is doing than blaspheme. the voices are getting good at lying and play as god and jesus christ. i don't like looking up hate to know it. i know i don't have anything against God. I love his words...
