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I hate it when I want a soda and all I have is a handful of nickels and dimes. My big, fancy debit card is useless. The vending machine does not respect it. Anger. Frustration. My need for carbonation sensation rages on.
I hate wanting someone to love. It makes me feel pathetic and weak and stupid. Like God is up there shaking his head at me, or laughing at how pitiful and dumb I am. "Silly girl, you don't have anyone, and you aren't going to have anyone, you're wasting your time". Not like He's being mean, just like, He knows what's what, that it's just not going to happen, and I'm like a stubborn, idiotic child who keeps asking for the same gift at every birthday, the gift I'm just not allowed to have.
Leaves me feeling something between absolute rage and absolute sadness.

I'm giggling and my toes are cold. I'm going back to bed for another hour.