Random thoughts without my will, sometimes feel weird

[Kostilaks]

Ocd was telling me to do a compulsion.

I did not want to do the compulsion.

Ocd was giving me worries for not doing it.

A part of me, for a second, made some thoughts without my will in my head about promising to God not to do the compulsion.

That part of me, felt relieved and on the same time, acted like the thoughts that popped up in my head without my will, have some value.

Deep inside me, I knew everything was ocd and thoughts without my will. And I could not control my feelings. Everything happened so fast. Subconsciously.

 

[public hermit]

Deep down you know it was ocd and thoughts without your will. You know this, which is good. That's progress. Kostilaks, God knows that, too. Be at peace, you know what thoughts are the ocd. That's good.