Quiverfull.......but don't want any more?

[RedTulipMom]

congrats on princess 4

 

[Sabertooth]

Hi there, I am quiverfull with 3 kids. I didn't become a quiverfull mommy until after the birth of our last baby. Mu husband never really felt a big conviction to this lifestyle, but agreed with my thoughts on it and the scripture and decided we should go ahead with it. I was okay with it, perfectly fine - no worries. In fact I had started to want another baby, even though my youngest is only 9 months! My husband however just confessed to me the other night that he has actually started to consider getting a vasectomy because he's so freaked out about getting me pregnant. I had noticed for a while that he had been avoiding intimacy, and now I knew why. Funny thing is, for a few weeks I had been thinking too that it would be awfully nice to just be done and know we're done. When he told me about the vasectomy idea I had mixed feelings. Part of me got excited about it (finally I won't have to worry about bc or getting pregnant), and another sid eof me was shocked because this OBVIOUSLY goes totally against my convictions and what we had agreed on. I brought up some points to him about how he would feel if he could never have kids againa nd something happened to one of our kids, or if he was sure he would be perfectly fine with never getting a son. Not to mention we could just change our minds, I'm 24 and he's 27 - we're still really young.

Ultimately it's his call as head of household, so I'm not worried about it. I'm just wondering if anyone else has gone through this and what they decided. Is it okay to believe that one should not use birthcontrol then contradict the conviction? I know God will fogive us if we make the wrong choice, but I thought when He convicted us to do something it means we should listen because this is His will for our lives. Any thoughts?

I believe that who God calls, he equips.

If you are called to be Quiverfull, then your shared apprehensions are not from Him. God is not the author of confusion [1Cor. 14:33 KJV]. Conversely, if you are trying to embrace Quiverfull in your own strength, you will always have apprehension about it.

Both cases require prayer: that He would uproot that apprehension OR that He would grant you both the grace, peace, faith, vision and calling to walk out this conviction, which I also pray for you. I say calling remembering what Peter said to Jesus, in Matt.14:28,

"Lord, if it's you," Peter replied, "tell me to come to you on the water."