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darlatwizzlesticks
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I would love to receive feedback about this issue, it's something that I think is easier to talk about on an online forum ...
I have been a christian for five years, and when I became a christian I had a real guilt complex about my enjoyment of smoking pot. When I made the decision to become a Christian, I thought that the decision had to walk hand-in-hand with me stopping smoking cigarrettes, drinking and smoking pot (which makes some sense) and it was easy for awhile because of how close I felt to God. I felt that nothing compared to what I was experiencing with God and that the bible says not to do certain things, I wouldn't do it. Period.
I have "fallen back" to smoking a few times throughout these past years, usually when my faith's in a dry spell, but I have found that especially now since I am having trouble sleeping due to stress, pot is the only thing that helps me relax. The guilt complex is coming back and I have found it hard to pray without feeling scared that I might be knowing it's a sin, but going against God anyways. I don't want to be defiant, but the thing is, I don't even know anymore if it's a sin. I am aware of the verses in the bible about following the law in general and the verses in the bible about not being drunk, but both of these points are challengeable. Smoking pot is legal for people who need it for medicinal purposes and legal for everyone to use in certain countries, and being high isn't the same (technically) as being drunk. Forgive me for being challenging if you think differently, it's just me trying to wrestle with the issue.
It bothers me to have to keep it a secret, because obviously not a lot of christians accept pot-smoking (whether or not they have been faced with the mindset of someone who uses it for medicinal purposes). People that know me know that I have wrestled with this issue for a long time, but are unaware that I am using it on a daily basis. Should I be secretive? If I am not, I think a lot of the christians would think that there's something wrong with me. Maybe there is. I believe in God just as much as before and I long to know him just as much as before, but I guess someone could think that I have fallen away from my relationship with him if I can't grasp the fact that smoking pot is a sin.
I don't know if it's addiction, but I know that I feel stressed out when I think of running out. I have stayed away from drugs for periods lasting up to one year, how could it be an addiction? I'm totally confused.
Any thoughts? Thanks for reading! I appreciate your comments very much, if any are to be left!
I have been a christian for five years, and when I became a christian I had a real guilt complex about my enjoyment of smoking pot. When I made the decision to become a Christian, I thought that the decision had to walk hand-in-hand with me stopping smoking cigarrettes, drinking and smoking pot (which makes some sense) and it was easy for awhile because of how close I felt to God. I felt that nothing compared to what I was experiencing with God and that the bible says not to do certain things, I wouldn't do it. Period.
I have "fallen back" to smoking a few times throughout these past years, usually when my faith's in a dry spell, but I have found that especially now since I am having trouble sleeping due to stress, pot is the only thing that helps me relax. The guilt complex is coming back and I have found it hard to pray without feeling scared that I might be knowing it's a sin, but going against God anyways. I don't want to be defiant, but the thing is, I don't even know anymore if it's a sin. I am aware of the verses in the bible about following the law in general and the verses in the bible about not being drunk, but both of these points are challengeable. Smoking pot is legal for people who need it for medicinal purposes and legal for everyone to use in certain countries, and being high isn't the same (technically) as being drunk. Forgive me for being challenging if you think differently, it's just me trying to wrestle with the issue.
It bothers me to have to keep it a secret, because obviously not a lot of christians accept pot-smoking (whether or not they have been faced with the mindset of someone who uses it for medicinal purposes). People that know me know that I have wrestled with this issue for a long time, but are unaware that I am using it on a daily basis. Should I be secretive? If I am not, I think a lot of the christians would think that there's something wrong with me. Maybe there is. I believe in God just as much as before and I long to know him just as much as before, but I guess someone could think that I have fallen away from my relationship with him if I can't grasp the fact that smoking pot is a sin.
I don't know if it's addiction, but I know that I feel stressed out when I think of running out. I have stayed away from drugs for periods lasting up to one year, how could it be an addiction? I'm totally confused.
Any thoughts? Thanks for reading! I appreciate your comments very much, if any are to be left!