Hello. I am fairly new to Christianity and am trying to figure everything out piece by piece. I was baptized when I was an infant. I have no recollection of this event and had no say in the matter.
Your relationship with God through Jesus Christ is a personal thing, no other person can stand in proxy for you and profess belief, they are in essence professing their own belief.
However, things have changed. For the last few months I have started to really delve deep into the bible and trying to understand its messages. I fully believe in God and in Christ as the savior.
John 6:44
No man can come to me, except the Father which hath sent me draw him: and I will raise him up at the last day.
You are being drawn by the Holy Spirit, this does not mean you received the Holy Spirit upon your infant Baptism, as some would have you believe.
You are professing your Faith in Christ right now to others on this Forum.
Rom. 10:10
For with the heart man believeth unto righteousness;
and with the mouth confession is made unto salvation.
This is the first step, Jesus also said this about Salvation
Mark 16:16
He that believeth and is baptized shall be saved; but he that believeth not shall be damned.
You have the Belief portion, and have professed that Belief to others, (US) you now need to be Baptized.
Baptism is not a Ritual, it's an even of change in the Believer, when you were Baptized as an infant, you not only had no say in the matter, you didn't even know why you were being Baptized.
Jesus did not say,
Be Baptized and then at some later date in your life come to Belief in me.
Baptism is our identification with Christ in His Death and Resurrection, it is at this point we are Born Again of the Spirit, unto Newness of life in the Spirit, we Die to the sinful nature (The Flesh) through Baptism and are raised unto Life in the Spirit.
Rom. 6:4
Therefore we are buried with him by baptism into death: that like as Christ was raised up from the dead by the glory of the Father, even so we also should walk in newness of life.
Gal. 2:20
I am crucified with Christ: nevertheless I live; yet not I, but Christ liveth in me: and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by the faith of the Son of God, who loved me, and gave himself for me.
My question is, if I was baptized without choice as an infant, have strayed from God for most of my life, and do not regularly attend church, will I still have and be guided by the holy spirit as long as I fully believe in Christ?
The simple answer is NO, the more lengthy answer is, you never received the Holy Spirit, so how can He guide you, as the Scripture said Mark 16:16 you need to Believe and then be Baptized, in order for you to receive the Holy Spirit, it does not work the other way around.
Do I need to belong to a church or be re-baptized in order to have the holy spirit, or is full belief enough? Thanks.
Yes you should belong to a Church, but I do not believe, if you were Baptized as an Infant into the Catholic Church that any Priest would perform a do over, if you said you didn't believe the first one was valid.
But a Protestant Church would, because of their understanding of what is achieved in Baptism.
Yes you should be Baptize after you Believed, this would not be a Re-Baptism, because if it was, that would affirm the first one when you were an Infant was true and valid, and there would be no need for a second.
Also Yes, that you would be assured in your own self, that the Holy Spirit did in fact dwell in you.