I have been so depressed what with the deaths and the marriage falling apart and being sick and living in a cold,dark basement...UGH!!
But.....I reached a new level! My prayers led me to a Bible study which led me to the ten comandments...Getting back to the basics was just what I needed...I repented of disobedience and started life over again led by the comandments..
Today I spent a whole day going to different places with my 7yr old..We had a wonderful time and only spent about 5 dollars all day..
Then I came home to find my husband hadn't done any of the things I asked..Infact he did nothing all day just like he's been doing since Christmas break from school and work...I'm not even totally sure he has a job still..
So anyway, I got right to work doing all of things that needed to be done to the best of my ability..Then I realized that its not important who does these things, just that they get done..
I realized that my husband doesn't want to be a husband but he doesn't want to be divorced either..Soo...I'm going to take care of me and my daughter and do what needs to be done, and let God take care of him..
I'm going to get out and meet friends and hopefully when my few bills are paid, then I can focus on getting help fixing the basement into an apartment...
Who knows? Hubby might just jump in and help one day...Till he does, I'll just worry about the things I can change
Thanks so much for the prayers!!
But.....I reached a new level! My prayers led me to a Bible study which led me to the ten comandments...Getting back to the basics was just what I needed...I repented of disobedience and started life over again led by the comandments..
Today I spent a whole day going to different places with my 7yr old..We had a wonderful time and only spent about 5 dollars all day..
Then I came home to find my husband hadn't done any of the things I asked..Infact he did nothing all day just like he's been doing since Christmas break from school and work...I'm not even totally sure he has a job still..
So anyway, I got right to work doing all of things that needed to be done to the best of my ability..Then I realized that its not important who does these things, just that they get done..
I realized that my husband doesn't want to be a husband but he doesn't want to be divorced either..Soo...I'm going to take care of me and my daughter and do what needs to be done, and let God take care of him..
I'm going to get out and meet friends and hopefully when my few bills are paid, then I can focus on getting help fixing the basement into an apartment...
Who knows? Hubby might just jump in and help one day...Till he does, I'll just worry about the things I can change
Thanks so much for the prayers!!
God Bless You!
