Psychological Problem...?

[hankpin]

One year ago, I had this weird dream that I was led to the Purgatory (or something to that sort) and was told that I will have to stay there for an extended period of time if I do not change. This dream had always bothered me, since I do not have the full concept of what exactly is a purgatory but yet I am dreaming about it and it bothers me.

Another similar feeling arose few months ago when I attended my grandmother's funeral Mass...its like this unbearable sense of guilt...like somehow I am responsible for her death. Since then, the past few months had been hellish with that unbearable since of guilt.

The weird part is, I am not even technically Christian. I was never baptized nor confirmed. I only attend Mass occasionally.

Am I going crazy?

 

[Criada]

It sounds as though God is calling you, brother.
However, it is not about being baptised, confirmed of attending church services. There is nothing wrong with any of those things.. but they are responses to an inward change, an acceptance that you are a sinner, and in need of God's mercy. It sounds as though you have got that far... and conviction of sin is a wonderful thing, because it leads us to the cross, and to the knowledge that the only way we can be clean before God is in accepting the sacrifice which Christ made there, for you and for me.

God loves you, enough to die for you, and He offers you forgiveness and a new start.
I don't know whether you pray.. but, ask God in, brother.
You are precious to Him!

 

[Elijah2]

One year ago, I had this weird dream that I was led to the Purgatory (or something to that sort) and was told that I will have to stay there for an extended period of time if I do not change. This dream had always bothered me, since I do not have the full concept of what exactly is a purgatory but yet I am dreaming about it and it bothers me.
Our Lord Jesus Christ is talking to you. And the time has come for your to take a new step into your life, but in another direction.

Another similar feeling arose few months ago when I attended my grandmother's funeral Mass...its like this unbearable sense of guilt...like somehow I am responsible for her death. Since then, the past few months had been hellish with that unbearable since of guilt.
When you feel responsible of something, then there may have been something said that made you feel responsible.

The weird part is, I am not even technically Christian. I was never baptized nor confirmed. I only attend Mass occasionally.
May be our Lord wants you to visit another church, and not Catholic?

Am I going crazy?
No, but you are being convicted by the Holy Spirit.

 

[El Catrin]

I don't know, did you try a dream dictionary?

 

[chilehed]

One year ago, I had this weird dream that I was led to the Purgatory (or something to that sort) and was told that I will have to stay there for an extended period of time if I do not change. This dream had always bothered me, since I do not have the full concept of what exactly is a purgatory but yet I am dreaming about it and it bothers me.

Purgatory is something that is believed by Catholics, but (for the most part) not by non-Catholics. It is a state of final purification after death and before entrance into heaven for those who died in God's friendship, but were only imperfectly purified; a final cleansing of human imperfection before one is able to enter the joy of heaven. You only get there if you're bound for heaven, and I suspect that the most miserable person there is a lot happier than any of us are here. You can learn more at http://www.usccb.org/catechism/text/pt1sect2chpt3art12.shtml.

Another similar feeling arose few months ago when I attended my grandmother's funeral Mass...its like this unbearable sense of guilt...like somehow I am responsible for her death. Since then, the past few months had been hellish with that unbearable since of guilt.

The weird part is, I am not even technically Christian. I was never baptized nor confirmed. I only attend Mass occasionally.

Am I going crazy?

I'm sorry for your loss. I understand. I owed my grandmother some amends for not always treating her with the consideration she deserved, and when she died I lost the opportunity to make those amends. It was a painful realization, and I was haunted by guilt.

The purpose of pain and suffering is to prompt us to turn toward God. If you're like me you've done regretful things, and it's normal to feel guilt about them and to have those feelings become amplified by grief. Perhaps what you're experiencing is a gift from God, so that you might reconsider your life.